opi ate to many opiates

[opi]

hey all,,,,,,,,lots-o-new folks here....this is good,,,also bad...lol....for those that know or remember me i was doin ok for a bit then went off the deep end again....i orbed back into the oxycontin coma.....this went on for a while...{scrolling pages of the calender}....doh....lol...i thought i was on a month or two run,,,,just realized it has been ....well...lots of pages....i am back on day two ct.....TWO....{my number keys don't work and was more interested in drugs than pc repairs....you know}...anyways yes,,,,,day two.....i forgot how much it ***** man...the ready to use cheese grader on my flesh feeling is back...i have been rollin around on the couch for a couple hours,,,some good fights on tv to suck my mind empty but the fights are over....was heading to take a hot bath before i have to cut my legs offs and let em run free but wanted to touch base with ya'll...<---only type like this,,,not speak it....i have been fighting the urge to post as i have been wired and did not feel it was fair...now i am shootin straight so i will post and get **** off my chest...as i learned long ago it helps,,,{i've allready put down the hack saw...see medhelp rocks}.......to all my homies...hope you  are well and if not medhelping anymore i hope it is due to being powerfull humans and able to walk a the walk...if not and are hiding like i was..well,,, pm me...i know wussup....ummm...hmmmm...guess that's all folks,,,,,i'm fightin the good fight...got ur back...peace

[sadinmichigan]

how ya feelin OPI?? just thinking about ya...

[mommy2be25]

Don't know ya but know that what you are facing is rough! Stick it out! Stay strong!

[Dknd4v]

i want to say all of your support is wat keeps alot of us going! I know this helps me everyday. Good luck Opi i know that feelin all too well. Im here if u need an ear n wat not

[gizzy32]

yes, but i had a relapse, over 100 days again. sorry that your suffering right now, but it looks good on ya, lmao, just kidding. Your gonna make it this time and you know as well as i do how helpful this place is so don't ditch us again. Hang in there bud.

[opi]

hey all......gizz   ;} still clean?.....thx for the response/support all...i slept a bit last night...thx to neo sitran...lol...more dope...hey but this ones ok,,ya get it over the counter,,,,pffft....next thing ya know i'll be carryin packs of neo around......doin rails...lol......i swear i lost five pounds  in sweat overnight...dragged my but to work then was sent home at noon{not cuz i'm a bad boy}...i was dyin then he said lets pack it in...yaaahooooo...this zombie was very happy...i waited til i was in the car to show my joy...i refuse to get time on my cell or it could be trouble..no one knows my landline number and i wont call dealers from it...i hear it calling me...the inner battle is on  but i can't cave/.....all that bs that has happened is creapin up on me and i need to be on my toes and do what needs to be done or life as i know will take a drastic change....i gota stop going cold turkey when it's cold out,,,,ya think i'd pick the warmest time of the year knowing that ct=cold chills,feet,hands...oh well...it is another form of punnishment cuz i'm a bad boy...wow ...i've forgoten how to spell,,,again.....k man,,,,,i'm guna blanket up for a bit...then i'll peel it off in twenty saying holly shyt i'm hot...then freeze .blah blah,,..thx again and i will be fighting the good fight...thx for watchin my back....peace

[Sunnyd210]

Thanks for making me laugh today. Im sorry you are having such a rough time I hope things turn around for u soon!!!!

[gizzy32]

Hey Opi, happy to hear you are getting back up and doing this again. You were missed here and we love your posts. I hope this is the end of this terrible cycle now so stick around man, we will all stay clean together.

[bandnmom]

Opi.....whats up!?!? Glad to see you back...well not really but its nice to see you....you know what i meen! LOL!!! We definetly miss your humor. Every post you write makes me giggle!! Sorry to hear you are on day 2! That ***** but the point is you are trying again and this time you will make it!!! Stick around here with us!! We are always here to help!
Stay strong!

[liscamdave]

Glad you are back. That is all that matters. Please keep us posted and don't go anywhere this time...lol...

Good to see you back my friend..

Lisa

[GoingToMakeIt]

Day 2 and fighting. Keep it up. Get some aftercare this time. so we can keep having you around, straight. I have missed your humor but I have to say. Maybe if you stayed on here and got counseling (which is cheaper than Oxys) you would be boasting about Day 200 or something. I really want you to break this cycle.
Good to se you.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Always loved your posts. And a sense of humor is vital in this fight. Stay too serious and you will lose your mind! Glad you are back in good frame of mind with more war stories to tell.............lets hear them! Best of the day to you......   eagle

[sadinmichigan]

OPIIIIIIIIIIIII  !!!. Hi dude..I am glad to see you back, but not..you know what i mean. This is a B1tch isn't it..at least your not giving up the fight. Drug addiciton is a formidable opponent for sure but not unbeatable..I hope you stick around for awhile this time and lean on your friends here for support and encouragement. Of course we love your humor..laughter can be the best medicine sometimes,even when there doesn't seem like much to laugh about. sooo, round 2,3 ..10....DING..

[allaboutmary]

Hey Welcome Back !  We have so missed your humor !  Hang in there and keep posting.

[troubleinohio]

missed you so much opi. glad to see you are back on the boat. xo xo

[newgirl2708]

missin' ya all da time sweetheart! welcome back...)))))open arms((((((

take care, you know what to do...

ng

[10356]

Glad to see you back and fighting... lesa

[opi]

hey man......how you doin...?///////////.......................yes after care....i thought it was something my dealers dealt...oops...i am guna get into na and rehab and anything else that will assist...i need some tools to work with...i've got a workroom with thousands of bucks worth of tools and not one will pry that freaker monkey off my back.....sup wit dat.......rtwor.....i have thought of all you that fight and have fought and made my time here worthy......i will be postin,,,,,,my humour is in check.....i have been saving it up...the bank is full-o-junkie laughs.......now if you will excuse me i am in the middle of a major hot  flash..need to go smoke a butt outside....cooldown,,,shiver,,come back in,,,then flash and so on...you know the routine....phew......peace....

[Kova]

love your mood!  LOL.

Kova

[sunshinedaydream3]

i totally feel u, i am exactly where ur at, just wakin up to reality and trying to fight the fight before i slip off into another few months of shame ....

good luck with it , stay strong
keep n touch

[broknbck]

devil indeed!!!   if these drugs are not the devil himself then who is he?

i know what you mean about quitting. i was trying to quit for like 2 years. and finally made it by tappering down first. but that can only be done if you have stopped chasing the high for a long time first.

heroin- hah, that is what me and my kids called my pills all the time. " i don't feel so good today kids, i did not take enough heroin" of course they are all grown up and on their own. they really helped me thru the whole thing. always cracking me up and wanting to take care of me. they are the greatest.
hope that your wife hangs in there. it is a lot on them, you know.

[road2recovery]

I was just thinking about you yesterday!!  I am so glad you posted...Even going through w/d's u never loose that sense of humor that i love....
YOU will make it..I don' t have to tell you ( you have been there done that)  that relapse is a part of recovery...
but i have no doubt that you will be ok
Please keep posting , you can help out so many here...
Keep the faith
and you were soooooo missed!!!
hugs to you my friend
r2r

[cathy5841]

hey opi good to see you back...sorry you are on day 2 again cuz that really bites.  your humor has been missed.....i hope you are gonna get some aftercare this time around.....we all need it....and i hope you stick around and make us laugh some more......welcome back.

[opi]

sorry....slow typer....lol....shaky...i'm guna try a bunch of stuff...i've got a list.....oops....forgot to scratch off oxycontin on the top

[opi]

i love oxycontin,,i mean i hate it...anything opate is my doc...oh....so it turns out that heroin is not a good substitute for oxy's......lesson learned...move on.....i do make jokes man but it is a very serious issue....i try to explain to people that i quit everyday for years.....wake up...todays the day man...yup....oops...nope....lots of guilt n shyt goes with it...well man...the time has trully come....it aint no joke....i'm tired...wifes worn down.......can't go on...stay tuned though,,,i do like to laugh when cuttin rug with the devil...peace