NO NO NOT AGAIN

[Kickin_it_for_good]

Holy crap guys, I am 14 days off the Vicoden and the cravings are TERRIBLE right now. I just want to go to the doctor right now and get another script. The WD is overwith (thank GOD) but the craving is just crazy. WHY WHY WHY! Crappy thing is, if I go see him, he will write me one with no problem because he knows about my bulging discs in my back. Oh lord please help me get through this! I even went to the fire station to talk to my fellow firefighters and was thinking the whole time,,,"the doc is only a block away" but I got into my car and came home. I cannot get back on this crap! I run into burning buildings everyday and run the ambulance...I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE!!!

[Kickin_it_for_good]

Oh god I do not miss the curled up shivering days. Those were the worst! Then the crapping bile? Did you ever have the joys of experiencing that? Holy crap that was terrible...literally!

[gettingbetter88]

You're doing awesome!!

I'm on day 14 too, methadone.  I DREAM about pills.  It'll pass.

Every time you think about a pill, think about how you felt in the peak of your w/d.  For me, the worst moment was curled up on the couch in a fetal position, shivering & sweating, time standing still, brain racing, somewhere around Day 4.

I know that's what'll happen, again and again and again, if I use.  

I figure this will probably last a long time.  But every day should get a little easier.

Hang in there, I'll be thinking about you!

[Kickin_it_for_good]

Thank you guys! It was a bit rough last night because I had to teach an EMT course and the topic was....NARCOTIC ABUSE IN PT. Wth! My luck. But I have not called the doctor, I have not taken any and I really do not want to. I think that my mind is playing these damn tricks on me and its about to drive me crazy. After class was done I had to go get some beers...with a really cute guy ;) So that took my mind off things LOL.
This morning is not easy either. How long do these cravings last?

[Hellbound304]

Be strong. Keep faith in the progress you have made. Be proud of the 14 days you have completed and set goals for yourself. Keep yourself busy and keep your mind off the beans. I am on day 8 and just had my first real temptation. Ran into my main supplier. It took every ounce of control and energy to walk away but I did. Until today I had been doing this alone. I found this forum and signed up. It has already helped me and it's only been a few hours. Keep the faith in yourself. It's obvious in your story that you have positive people in your life. Use them to keep your self positive. You can do it. We all can do it. Keep the faith in yourself bro. Good luck!

[gnarly_1]

HI....well you made it threw the detox now comes the fight....the mental end of this thing can be every bit as hard as the physical part.....thats why we so strongly suggest aftercare
it will give you the tools and skills to get past things like cravings...it will also let you dig down to the very reason you want to escape in the first place...I agree with the other poster also in that the cravings usually dont last all that long if you can get your mind on something else
its only when we obsess on them that they linger so try to get bizzy doing something else to take you mind off the cravings...and get pluged into some form of aftercare as soon as you can...good luck and God bless......Gnarly    

[Lindsay_T]

I like what IBKleen says.  "Calm down you are going to make yourself crazy" It is true and very hard to do when you are fighting such strong urge.
Here is a news flash I heard on radio :"If the horse has been dead for ten years , dismount." You are Done with pills. Dismount!!!
I hope. You have strong desire to fight this Mo Fo.
Pullin for you,
Lindsay

[pattifan]

Hi,

I know it may not seem like it, but each craving doesn't last very long (15 mins or less).

Don't try to watch the clock or they will seem to last forever. Just distract yourself by any means possible- little jobs around the home, going for a walk, doing a crossword or whatever.

If you need another incentive, remember that if you continued your habit it would worsen, and eventually the Fire Service WOULD find out, with dire consequences for your job.

You can do this, and we are all behind you.

Hang in there!

[IBKleen]

First off, calm down. You are going to make yourself crazy.

I don't know if this is your first withdrawal or whatever but there is two parts to this disease, as I am sure you see now. First, you go through the physical withdrawal and then comes the mental. Have you read anywhere about aftercare? If so, then you know what people mean when they talk about it. The mental stuff will take you down faster than the physical on any day.

We tend to forget pain---that is our mind's way of getting us through it. So when the ache of physical withdrawal is over the mental part sneaks up and kicks you in the ars.

And to take it a step further, using drugs is a symptom  of what is really going on with us. Hence the aftercare.

Do you want to stay clean and are you willing to do whatever it takes to do so? Then you are in the right place so come and talk to us.....

[jstntime]

Hi there,

I sure can commiserate with you.  I have a doctor that will literally throw pills at me because he knows that I suffer for real.  

Go and read a few of your old posts to remind yourself of where you do not wish to return.  Call somebody, keep posting, go to a meeting....do ANYTHING but don't make a doctors appt.

It takes a lot of work to make it to 14 days.  Don't let a moment of weakness (which EVERY one of us get) make you repeat those 14 days.  I am pleading with you......reach out to someone and get past this craving!!!!!

I will say a small prayer that you get through this!!!!

bob

[jaxbaby]

I am right there with you on day 12.  I am trying to keep busy and am also relying on the board.  Let's get through one more day, think of what we went thru with withdrawals- I know I do not want that agan!  Keep posting and so will I. Check wih you later .

[laurel453]

your brain is telling all kind of excuses and lies to make you give up...don't hear those lies... you are saving yourself now, not other people's lives but your own life and you know that it is not easy saving a life, that you need a lot of courage and valor....and you have them so now you need them to save yourself....

take a long long hot bath.... it will help you a lot to relax, breath deep and fill yourself with positive thoughts.... those cravings are like waves..  with time they will come with less frecuency and intensity....fight them , you can do it :)

[outcold]

Please hang in there and don't go to the Dr.! I am looking to you for help in realizing I can do this! Not to put pressure on you or anything. :-) The medical profession is so unforgiving when it comes to these things, you are lucky you have your firefighter brothers to support you. If you need yet another reason not to start again, I can always remind you how horrible these withdrawal symptoms are... I would give anything to wish myself to day 14! My bet is on your success!