Doctor appointment Friday

[apike31108]

So, when I went to the OBGYN last Tuesday she said she thinks I have intersticial cystitis which is causing all my chronic pelvic pain. Granted I know I am on day 8 and probably still having some withdrawal symptoms but I am having legit pain too. It's horrible. I don't want to take pills the way I did, but I can't live with this chronic pelvic pain either....when it hits me like it has today/this afternoon it hits me and I want to die. It's so hard for me to work. I am so aggravated and frustrated. I get mad at myself thinking...ok, I had pills to help with the pain...but I took them even when I didn't have pain. Now I'm thinking ok well if I have pills now I will only take them when I have legit pain...not just because to feel good. Can I control myself or is an addict always an addict? I don't know. I am so torn. Don't know if I would even get pain meds prescribed to me anyways...but honestly the way I feel I want/need one. I feel horrible and cannot miss/call into work.

[apike31108]

I sent you a pm bama checking on you. Quit being stubborn and take your pain pills. You are in so much real pain. You can get off them after you heal.

[apike31108]

I don't know because I don't have any. The way I feel about it though. I want to control myself because I don't want to go thru withdrawels again. It's horrible.

[bama88]

if you give your meds to your fiancee to dispense good choice. how do you feel about just taking as needed? its hard...

[apike31108]

I've tried everything that is how I got on Percoset then Lortab. It's the only thing that helps my pain. Then I had my mom that got so sick with cancer and I couldn't handle it so I popped extra. Then I watched her die in Oct and that was when I started taking 10 Lortab 7.5s a day. My fiance said he'd give them to me as needed if I get them. I just don't know. I will ask about non narcotic meds and other options. My ob wanted to do another endometreosis laproscpoic surgery but I can't take off work right now to do it.

[bama88]

hey there...tell me about it. now you see why im flipping out. i decided to try again tomorrow. so lets both try together. i know how hard it is to work with cronic pain. sleep with it eat with it shop (grrr) with it. but in my opinion we've got to find another alternative...has anything helped in past? i know i can't control myself. i know i can't....if i had the oxies on me id have ate three or four by now. see the stinking thinking? its ultimately your disicion. who can you give your pills to? my mom has mine...and even Thu she drinks and gets drunk she is like an elephant for rembering when she gives me medicine...she even writes it down so i can see.

i compley get that pain you have...i had fibroid tumors in uterus...i used to double over in pain. i found that good ole motion REALLY worked on that pain.
once we cross over to opiates we tell ourselves nothing else will work

[laurel453]

No, you won't be able of controlling the pills once you start taking them again but on the other hand, you don't have to suffer in excrutiating pain.... tell your husband to keep the pills in a safe place so that you won't ever abuse them again and try any way to handle your pain with non narcotics pills too, apike.... For now, you are doing great so let's wait until your appointment and see what your doctor tells you and ask her about the non narcotic pills... good luck !!