day 2

[scoenen]

well, i feel like death warmed over but i decided to follow your guys advice and do everything i can to make myself feel better faster so i worked out.  i got on our Nautilus bike for 20 minutes and it was torture but i hope it helps.  i just want to get back to who i was before the addict took over.  starting day3 tonight.  boy i feel bad hopes it eases up a bit

scoenen

[kristellk]

Hey... Times like these you need to take it one hour at a time, one minute at at time.. I feel your pain.. I did the SAME thing, had a major break down in front of my son.. I FELT HORRIBLE... BUT our love is unconditional.. DON't FEEL BAD.., DONT GET SOO DOWN on yourself... TRY POSITIVE THOUGHTS ( I know NOT easy).... Get through this ICKY stuff... Your kids will benefit from it in the long run!! Are you taking anything for your withdrawals???

[Dav125]

Didn't mean it as a slap to the head, just a reality check. Your one of the few that can hardly hear those words so early in the process. Take it day by day. Keep expectations low so as not to set yourself up for disappointment :)

[scoenen]

thanks for the slap to the head:)  i needed it.  sometimes you just get caught in the weeds.
i'll take a few deep breaths, shove those nonmotivating thoughts out of my head and getting moving on getting better.  sometimes you just need to suck it up and it looks like its my time.

[Dav125]

Look , one of the biggest things that causes problems during the early stages is what Gnarly_1 says over and over. You need to accept and be ok with knowing your not going to be ok for a few days getting thru the early stages. Like,,I have and know I will be sick for a week, know this is what it is going to be, and just do the best you can with focus on the sickness leaving in a weeks time, and in many cases less. There are symtoms that linger, but hear recently I see so many getting hung up in the moment, they can't see the forest thru the trees..Things do change and they do for the better. But that change isn't going to be today or tommorrow yet everyone focuses so heavily on wanting it now..Hey,,we all want it now, but it just doesn't happen that quick. The best we can do is do the best we can and "believe" it will get better..

[scoenen]

I know this is a part of the withdrawals but the thoughts that go through my head are dangerous- things like- what a loser you are, your a bad mom, your a waste, etc.  Its terrible.  

My sick daughter is peacefully sleeping right now and the other is playing the new Wii game we got her for Valentines day.  She just happened to come into the computer room during my breakdown.  What a mess.

eating is a real torture session but I have been drinking lots of water, Ensure, trying to choke down toast and the like.  

[doneaddict]

hi my name is chris, and im trying to get of methadone and i havent even started my taper yet and have been having the same issues as crying and thinking about how bad i have been to my family. I have talked to people about this and they think its anxiety. I am going to see about getting something for it. I f you need to talk more i am always checking posts and willing to help if i can. sorry to hear you feel this way.  chris

[vicki595]

Hey,concentrate on your daughter. Liquids,coughing and deep breathing will help her. The same goes for you!

Don't dwell on yesterday...it's gone now.  Keep going forward. And you are NOT broken;
just a little frayed around the edges.  Are you eating?  You better!!

[scoenen]

just had a mental breakdown.  Starting crying uncontollably about how much time I wasted with my daughters (scared the heck out of one of them by the way) and in the next second the thought a pill would fix this pops into my head.  The other daughter has pneumonia which I am having to try to take care of her.  Crimmy I can't believe I did this to myself.

Any posting would help.  I am completely broken right now.  thanks guys

[Jammerson1906]

HANG IN THERE!! And keep posting! That is what got me through....I am on day 8 and finally feel human again. It has been HELL...worse than I could have ever imagined..>BUT- I made it!! If I can do it, believe me, you can do it!!
Keep moving, drinking, music was a huge help for me....
If it gets worse...know it WILL get better, I am living proof of that!
God Bless......and keep fighting:)))