depression is terrible

[dede2121]

Double digits today. 10 days and the depression awful.

[4YRHitch]

I feel for you Dede and cannot imagine your depression.  I have some now but it's a new experience for me.  I have never been a depressed person in my life...and this stinks.  I have a whole new appreciation for those suffering from depression.

God bless and keep up the good work...you'll make it!

[dede2121]

13 dsys today.
Not trying t o burst anyone's bubble but this depression is awful.
I do have an appointment tomorrow with therapist that wad made when I was in detox. They are trying to see if I qualify for safety net (insurance). Which I am positive I do. After that I can get starton treatment for depression.

Ibkleen always told me she thought depression was my biggest problem.  I guess that's why I turned to pain pills. A quick fix to feel better. But I truly believe this time those days are gone.
I have been on this site four years almost. It's time to live a normal life.  Although I know it will take some time to fix the damage I have done to my body and worst of all, my finances. It makes me sick and very depressed to think of my financial ruin.
Thanks guys for always being here.
Dede

[dede2121]

I'm really trying so hard this time. I want this so bad.  

[IBKleen]

You have suffered with depression for so many years. Each time you o back to using it gets worse. Hun, you have got to stay clean this go round and get yourself on track with your depression issues..whatever you have to do. Stay strong.

[dominosarah]

Good advice from everyone.  The more you get up and move the quicker you get those natural endorphins working.  You are doing great so keep it going~

[nonights]

What you are feeling right now most of us has felt. Some days still feel. But you are feeling all the things the drugs numbed. All the emotions. Up and then down all over the place. Try to get out of your head. Go for a walk. Listen to music. Whatever to distract yourself. Most important be patient with yourself. You are healing.

[motye51]

OMG!!!  I LOVE your Energizer Bunny picture!!!!!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Try getting out and walking. Get the blood moving. It does help.
Eat Chocolate with a minimum of 65% cocoa. It really does help.

[dirtydirk]

congrats on double digits.....Music was so helpful for me , just put on your favorite jams ususally 30 min of that will put a smile on yo face!!  

[motye51]

When I hit this part I really found that going outside in the sun did help. Fresh air and just sitting in the sun helped. Also, dark chocolate!!!! I actually made me feel good!