Yes, Sara, VERY scary. I didn't even know that was what I did until the SA forum.
Thanks Jade. It is very scary how fast it gets you isnt it?
I am not a drinker AT ALL. No wine or drink with dinner EVER as an adult, as I can't stand the taste of alcohol, but after a rehab stay in '88', I met someone who DID drink, and that was all it took for me to begin binging Heavily on Crown Royal for about a year on weekends. We would drink an entire liter bottle, then go get another. I would never say I was an alcoholic at group meetings while in rehab because I Did Not Drink. Traded one addiction for another before I knew what hit me.
If i took a drink i would die as that one drink would turn into a bottle of whiskey, not mixed with anything, straight and this is what i would do every single day. I drank it like people drink water. it is nothing to mess with, trust me.
Hey girl, this is a subject that i have and still struggle with. In the beginning of my recovery like the first 90 days i was no way, i will not drink i am going to be straight, then i started with some wine and before i knew it, it became a bottle. So as i learned in rehab, "clear of ALL mind altering substances" I never agreed, but now i understand completely about cross addiction!!!! I was never much a drinker as i preferred my pills, so i didn't drink much at all. Well after about 3 months clean or so i started drinking, and before i knew it i was drinking way to much, and i got scared, very scared, i don't want to not be able to ever have a drink, i want to be normal and drink socially at times. So i have caught myself going down the path of drinking to much and put a stop to it, i do drink at times, at parties and such, but i am keeping a close eye on it. I see both sides to this and the safest route to take is to abstain from all mind altering. I know its confusing, but we are all learning and this is a great way to open up the line of communication.
I dont believe it is a good idea to go there especially in the early months. Our brain still isnt healed and that little "gnome" that swings in the back of your head starts to take over your playground~