feel worse after relapse

[done4good]

I took 3 vicodin last night after 5 days clean, and thew the rest out. (Thank you so much to everyone who encouraged me)
Today has been hard. I woke up feeling ok but then as the day wore on I feel achy and sneezy and nauseous.
I can't believe I did this to myself. I was on my 5th day of no pills and now I feel worse again.
Please tell me this won't last....
I was only on lower dose percs and vikes for about 1.5 mos. But I have prior addiction stuff with ultram...bad withdrawals twice.
thanks for listening...
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[worried878]

Learn from it....all we can do is learn from our mistakes ...still does not mean we wont make them....i dont think it will last very long....mental part is harder when we do this to ourselves i think that the physical part this time...get your head on straight and let it make you stronger and not weaker...keep moving forward...even when we take a step or two back...go forward again

[GoingToMakeIt]

I'm sorry this happened to you. Learn from this and go on. It was a bump in the road but keep on going. W/D should not last much longer.

[done4good]

thanks. Ok that makes me feel a bit better that I didn't totally blow it. And yeah..it was totally NOT worth it. I really paid attention to how I felt on them last night and after the initial "buzz", it was more of an amped up feeling than anything. I think the only "high" I got was simply being out of this pain for a few hours. Believe me, if I had not dumped them I would have taken some by now. That addict side of me is kicking myself.
It made me realize that once you're addicted you're never really going to get that fun high anymore...you're just going to be trying to stay out of pain.
sucks
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[corey411]

It has happened to me a few times and I didn't feel good..esp jittery but was back on track in a day and a half. If one thing good comes out of it it's that you'll see it wasn't worth it. Just keep looking ahead. You got a few difficult mental weeks but should start going up hill. Try to understand what made you use so you can understand your triggers and try to avoid situations that cause them. Hoping the best for you. Corey

PS Good job on throwing the rest out. I've never been strong enough to do that.