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Hello to all, I just wanted to post to say that I'm feeling so blah, melancholy, sad, and crying lately, and i am not even sure why. I am clean 7 months now and i am doing well with sleep, and energy but this feeling of sadness is bizarre to me, it's not depression, maybe my body is still healing? i feel lost, i feel like i do not know who i am, i am not one to cry and lately its been happening more than i ever cried in my life...Is this normal? I am under allot of stress, but aren't we all? I still find myself warding off cravings, and yet i know life on pills is not an option but yet my mind keeps taking me there, but NO, i am not slipping or mentally caving in, I'm just i don't know what i am......Of course i come here to post as y'all are the only people that "get me", or should i say we all just get each other...
I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. It very well may be normal. I'm sorry to ask like this, but to be blunt, how do you know it's not depression? Depression has many faces and symptoms.
When my emotions/feelings returned, they did so and I loved it! I was down in the dumps, but in that same day I was also smiling, or laughing really hard. Too hard for the reason usually. For instance, a funny scene on Big Bang Theory. Everyone in the room laughed, but I continued for ten minutes. They're like dang Barb, it was funny but not that funny! Then a commercial would come on and I'd cry my eyes out. Especially the animal commercials from PETA or whatever they're called. Point I'm making is it was all my emotions, not just sad ones.
That lasted from getting clean till month 7. Month 7 to present is depression. But I have a history of it, know what to expect.
I guess the question is how long have you been feeling this way. And to the ones above that said it was normal, how long did they feel so badly?
If it passed in a week or two, ok. But if it last weeks on end, without any sunlight, perhaps you could share your feelings with a counselor. You don't need to go in thinking they are just going to medicate you. That could be an option months from now if you aren't better. But perhaps speaking with a counselor can help you figure out why, and steps to get turned back to happy days.
Hugs, hope today was better.
When my emotions/feelings returned, they did so and I loved it! I was down in the dumps, but in that same day I was also smiling, or laughing really hard. Too hard for the reason usually. For instance, a funny scene on Big Bang Theory. Everyone in the room laughed, but I continued for ten minutes. They're like dang Barb, it was funny but not that funny! Then a commercial would come on and I'd cry my eyes out. Especially the animal commercials from PETA or whatever they're called. Point I'm making is it was all my emotions, not just sad ones.
That lasted from getting clean till month 7. Month 7 to present is depression. But I have a history of it, know what to expect.
I guess the question is how long have you been feeling this way. And to the ones above that said it was normal, how long did they feel so badly?
If it passed in a week or two, ok. But if it last weeks on end, without any sunlight, perhaps you could share your feelings with a counselor. You don't need to go in thinking they are just going to medicate you. That could be an option months from now if you aren't better. But perhaps speaking with a counselor can help you figure out why, and steps to get turned back to happy days.
Hugs, hope today was better.
I tried to be normal, it was very disappointing. I tried extraordinary for awhile too, man that was tiring. I decided the best me I can be is all their is, hopefully I'm improving a little anyway. I can live with that, like there is a choice. I like you as you, not sure I'd get along with a normal you. Keep on being you, the best you can, I bet it works out perfect.
Do what I do. Go take a walk through an ICU (or shelter, orphanage etc) and think of how much worse your life could be. Chances are that will put things in perspective. CONGRATULATIONS on your 7 awesome months! This too shall pass.
I hate to say it, but what you're going through is normal. You will have ups and downs for some months to come. But never loose sight of what you've accomplished. It is amazing.
And you that the mental struggle never stops; I'm pushing two years and the cravings are alive and well. If I hadn't done the things I did when I first started getting clean I probably would have relapsed by now.
Anyway, you're doing great. Tomorrow will be another day; a beautiful clean day. You'll see.
K
And you that the mental struggle never stops; I'm pushing two years and the cravings are alive and well. If I hadn't done the things I did when I first started getting clean I probably would have relapsed by now.
Anyway, you're doing great. Tomorrow will be another day; a beautiful clean day. You'll see.
K
I miss the mask sometimes too but when I see the mask on others(and I see it every day) it looks pretty scary and I don't miss it nearly as much
Thanks girl, i am so over the crying, i hate it, what i hate the most is feeling so vulnerable, I'm not use to this! The pills sure did mask all the feelings and now that the mask is off, i assume i am feeling naked?? I miss the mask, sad to say.
Hey there girl, I really understand what you are saying. It seems that I cry at the drop of a hat! (Does anyone still say that anymore? Lol) I cry when I'm happy, sad, bored, and especially when I'm mad! I will say, that I feel so much better after crying. The only thing I can offer is to let yourself feel these emotions. They need to come out. I stuffed them in for so long, that now it seems to explode out of me. The other day in the grocery store, I got so mad at this idiot in front of me, that I just started bawling! I was so embarrassed, but I did feel better! I guess it was better than hauling off and smacking her, right? Take care, it's gonna be fine!
Thanks guys!!! It sure does help hearing y'all and just knowing that I'm not crazy helps a ton.
vic, sorry you had this mess of emotions at the 7 month mark but honestly its comforting to know its not just me:-)
Rosy, hey sweet girl!! thanks for the cheer, you always know how to put a smile on my face
Ric, i agree, i do not want to get hung up on PAWS, but i hate that i don't feel good either. I do need to exercise, I'm limited on what i can do, but i sure can get my butt moving more:-)
spider, hey there, its nice to meet ya!!! Im sure you heard this many times but you sure are a HOOT!
weaver, OUCH, the reminder of our dear Sara "congrats on feeling again", YEP, i was told those words too and man it STINGS!!! But she also told me way back that when she hits a nerve with me than that's a good thing!!!! YEP, she is right, so thanks for the reminder.
attthebeach, i love you!
vic, sorry you had this mess of emotions at the 7 month mark but honestly its comforting to know its not just me:-)
Rosy, hey sweet girl!! thanks for the cheer, you always know how to put a smile on my face
Ric, i agree, i do not want to get hung up on PAWS, but i hate that i don't feel good either. I do need to exercise, I'm limited on what i can do, but i sure can get my butt moving more:-)
spider, hey there, its nice to meet ya!!! Im sure you heard this many times but you sure are a HOOT!
weaver, OUCH, the reminder of our dear Sara "congrats on feeling again", YEP, i was told those words too and man it STINGS!!! But she also told me way back that when she hits a nerve with me than that's a good thing!!!! YEP, she is right, so thanks for the reminder.
attthebeach, i love you!
hey sweetie, dana could be just life's normal up and downs.
we all have them. lean on your faith, listen to some faith inspired music, get outside more, get over to the beach, exercise more, pray more.
emotions are a good thing, we cant be on the mountain top all the time,
there are also valleys we must go through.
I hope and pray you will feel better soon. keep on climbing and you will be on the next mountain top.
much love,
we all have them. lean on your faith, listen to some faith inspired music, get outside more, get over to the beach, exercise more, pray more.
emotions are a good thing, we cant be on the mountain top all the time,
there are also valleys we must go through.
I hope and pray you will feel better soon. keep on climbing and you will be on the next mountain top.
much love,
Years of tears come flooding in after we break the opiate dam. I have felt every emotion to it's extreme since my detox. At 120 days I had a flash flood of sadness. It's happened a lot of times. Each time I pass through it, I get a little stronger. Stress is a taxing thing, it drains me and I am not fully charged to begin with. I'd rather be sad than numb. When I was really sad and confused I was told a very eye opening thing by Sarah, "congrats on feeling again."
It su*ks!!! It really, really su*ks for you Dane.
I'm not as far along as you are but I am dealing with the same thing as you are right now. I feel bad because I seem to have been in this place for a long time and most everyone else here is so "Gangbusters"......h3ll, I don't have enough energy to get out my "dustbuster". lol
Like you though, I'm not giving in. I know there's lots of things you can do
to try and get yourself "up" though. Exercise is the best way to combat,
...meloncholy, or depression such as I have. You say you're not depressed though. Are you in a good enough place to be able to judge if
you are depressed or not? I apologize for not knowing your back story right now, I kind of jumped in here without getting more info about you first.
I don't want to be "sexist" here and bring up "age" related "meloncholy" issues. lol I'll just say that I can't even have a sad thought without tearing
up these weeks. It's annoying and it's painful too, I get it. God do I get it.
Dane, start to put your energy into something like a "cause" or charity of
some sort. Helping others always takes the edge off drowning in my own sorrow. Stay close to MH and read and post.
Feel better soon Dane.
peace, hope and dry eyes.
hugs. xo
I'm not as far along as you are but I am dealing with the same thing as you are right now. I feel bad because I seem to have been in this place for a long time and most everyone else here is so "Gangbusters"......h3ll, I don't have enough energy to get out my "dustbuster". lol
Like you though, I'm not giving in. I know there's lots of things you can do
to try and get yourself "up" though. Exercise is the best way to combat,
...meloncholy, or depression such as I have. You say you're not depressed though. Are you in a good enough place to be able to judge if
you are depressed or not? I apologize for not knowing your back story right now, I kind of jumped in here without getting more info about you first.
I don't want to be "sexist" here and bring up "age" related "meloncholy" issues. lol I'll just say that I can't even have a sad thought without tearing
up these weeks. It's annoying and it's painful too, I get it. God do I get it.
Dane, start to put your energy into something like a "cause" or charity of
some sort. Helping others always takes the edge off drowning in my own sorrow. Stay close to MH and read and post.
Feel better soon Dane.
peace, hope and dry eyes.
hugs. xo
Hey Dane ! Sorry you are going through this spell ! .It is a spell .We have those .;)) I will tell you what I do when I am having one . I ramp up my activity and also my exercise . 30 continuous minutes of cardio a day is something we all need.. It helps so so much . It is my most effective tool against depression and also cravings,in fact I am really inclined to believe that it is the ONLY things that I can expect real time results from and that is HUGE for us depression sufferers because I have taken everything in the book as far as AD meds go in the past and waited and waited....and waited. I really try not to get hung up on PAWS and things like that because it does not really help me move forward. I realize I am in a lull and take action to try to move myself beyond it and live my way into better thinking. It always works ....not saying that it always will but it does and has. Waiting to feel better never works and it is torturous to wait and wonder when.
The seasons are changing too and the sun is getting lower in the sky leaving us more susceptible to SAD . Just hang in there and keep up the great job you have been doing .7 months is HUGE !!! Congrats on that ! ;))))
The seasons are changing too and the sun is getting lower in the sky leaving us more susceptible to SAD . Just hang in there and keep up the great job you have been doing .7 months is HUGE !!! Congrats on that ! ;))))
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Cheer up sweetie! I hate seeing you sad. Your a very special person! I am here if you need/want to talk! Hang in there! Brighter days are ahead!
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Cheer up sweetie! I hate seeing you sad. Your a very special person! I am here if you need/want to talk! Hang in there! Brighter days are ahead!
Hi Dane..I too am sorry to hear this..BUT I had about the same issues n my 7 month..This was the month that my Mental was bad..I mean really strange..I felt happy & fine, except for the detoxing, all the way up until my 7-9 month..It is better now, but I still have some weakness here and there. Now I have a little over a year and can not figure out why I am hot and sweaty again...Maybe Hormones AGAIN!!! I thought I was done with that..Shoot it feels like my first month of w/ds..
Hang tight this will Pass..Life will always have its up & downs..I know it was really hard for me to pin point it too!!! Most likely PAWS...lol
Bless
Hang tight this will Pass..Life will always have its up & downs..I know it was really hard for me to pin point it too!!! Most likely PAWS...lol
Bless
Hi Dane I am sorry you are having a rough time. :( I wish I could help but I don't have enough time behind me so I just wanted to give you some support and also tell you congrats on seven months that is something to be very proud of.
Hello dane.
Even though im only close to 2 months this is very normal. The body needs to heal. its been under more stress from the drugs for as long as you were using and it does take time sometimes less sometimes more depending on the person. and the time used and amount used. anyway if you need to talk you can PM me or just comment on here im on.
Even though im only close to 2 months this is very normal. The body needs to heal. its been under more stress from the drugs for as long as you were using and it does take time sometimes less sometimes more depending on the person. and the time used and amount used. anyway if you need to talk you can PM me or just comment on here im on.
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