finally came clean to my parents !

[ThisIsntMe]

I just couldn't take it anymore so I told my parents about a week ago that I had been taking pills for 2 years. it was one of the hardest things ive had to do honestly. I was taking 7 tramadols a day and 20-40mg hydrocodone. id take Adderall when I couldn't find those but it wasn't often. I haven't taken tramadol in 2 days so im super happy about that, but I did take a hydrocodone at two separate times that first night, I took 2 adderalls IR today. the last Adderall I took was at 8pm and its now 3am. when I take the addys I have to take them 3 hours apart because I start feeling like total crap at about 2 and a half hours. well...its been 7 hours and I don't feel good but I haven't taken anything to feel better which is good for me. I have to be high at all times. and I will absolutely not go to bed without feeling good. but I actually feel pretty good! I mean I feel like crap, but I guess what im trying to say is I don't feel so...groggy and blah from taking so many drugs. its a nice feeling, well as nice a feeling as I can get right now lol. I know the Adderall may still be covering it up some but that's still good news in my eyes! im going to take one more Adderall tomorrow and try to put some time in between doses. then the next day im gonna start my wellbutrin. my dad said it really helped him while coming off tramadol.it will be my 4th day without tramadol so hopefully everythings not too bad... I do have a cold now though.  I just wanted to let yall know what was going on. I know I never get on here :/ hope everyone is well!

[jlannspr]

Welcome, I know the feeling of always feeling like you have to be "high." You'll be amazed in a few days how much level-headed and free you feel. Best of wishes to you. The physical part is temporary, and the mental part will be tough, but you sound like you're ready to fight it.

[Jerry198]

great that you found the site and that you have put your head around becoming free you should know that in the next 24 hrs you wont feel to hot so get ready to feel crappy just make sure to get rest and keep hydrated and when you feel down hit the shower for a break if you can.. stay close good luck.

[vicki595]

Let's hope the Wellbutrin helps you. You won't feel it working but once it builds up blood levels you should feel better.

Your parents sound very supportive so use them for your strength and get away from all those pills! You'll feel better without the Tramadol on board.

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