five days clean

[lonelygirl369]

Today is day five, made it through the weekend, had a few hard moments, I kept busy best I could, and took some power naps, energy level still messed up, I will feel fine one minute then crash hard the next.Going to my Docter this morning to fess up to my addiction, so if I am feeling weak, I will not be able to call and get a script. Big step for me. I start  addiction counseling on friday.  

[stacey1979]

SEE i forgot what i was writing about lol

[stacey1979]

Oh and the whole reason I wrote that post was to let you know my drug choice was opiates. and No havent started any kind of after care yet. I did not do that the first time around but plan on it this time when I get a little more energy. ASAP!!

[stacey1979]

You hang in there! Remember your the mother and he's the child no matter what you have done you are still there!
Thank God my two sons are only 7 and 4! Someday when they get older we will tell them just to hope it keeps them away from it!

Anyway to answer your previous post Im on day 6 now and even went shopping. My two biggest complaints are energy and I cant remember anything. I have to laugh at my self a little though cause I was walking through the store and I though well chilli would be good for supper.

So I got the hamburger, chilli season, and an onion and I remember thinking to myself is that all that goes in chilli? Yep ok lets go lil man (my youngest son thats what i call him) anyway as we were walking to the checkout i kept thinking that cant be all that goes in it so i got the package and looked at the back WELL DUH DUMB A-- you gotta get tomatoe juice, chilli beans, tomatoe sause and crackers. LOL! Thats all I put in my chilli.

But I felt like such a dork. Then had to struggle to remember how to make tacos. So I guess its not just our body's that half to learn how to live again but our memory to! Lets just hope I dont forget where my kids are or where im at!

Anyway you both hang in there. I gave you that little story for a laugh HOPE IT HELPED ;-)

[beth7819]

it takes work but not only quiting it takes tools for me anyway. i had a crisis last night and wouldve relapsed if i didnt call someone. i know my relapse is iminent if i dont use the tools like steps sponsers meeting all of that combined led me to a place i never thought i could be. i also didnt have them availaible to me in nc  country i am a bike ride away from averywhere now i am very blessed. i am having a tough day today down n out because my youngest son completely abused me last night saying such hurtful hateful things to me but i held my composure and just dealt with it its not fair he talked to me like that and my whole world hurt because they r my world im just lonely down n out sorry i know ur going thru alot so im not ganna burden u.
on a different note how are you feeling today?
hope good another tool for me is prayer and i will surely add you to it but im going to eat take time for myself and watch sons of anarchy lol i even put on my jammys ive been to jazzersize class and tanning was gana go to a meeting but i havent stopped and took time for myself in a while so i can deal with more of his lil shittty ways hes dishing it thats for sure
well thanx
liz

[lonelygirl369]

Thanks  for the support. As you no this is not an easy road in the begining. My biggest complaint right now is energy, and just an overall feeling of blah.I no this is not a permenate state( at least I hope not) but I am looking forward to feeling alive and conected to the world. I did not become an addict over night so I don't no  why I think I should  suddenly be this new person in a week.

[beth7819]

IT SOUNDS LIKE BOTH OF YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK!!!!!!!!!
my question is what is ur drug of choice? and have yall started to go to meetings i didnt really get it til i went to meeting i didnt realize hey i have  this and help who heard of that my "friends" wouldnt come at a crisis situation these ppl do there job is to carry the msg of hope to other addicts. i have gotten clean b4 and i went thru the most awful w/d just to pick up again later in life because i didnt get the help i needed from support groups im not trying to throw this at u at any force im just simply saying u can do this but groups and steps make it stick . because i have a sick brain. we have a sick brain its like diabeties u have to take insulin everyday to stay alive. this is the hardest thing i ever did because i am all so emotional. i wonder everyday if i am just a tanted soul and the groups help remind me im not the onlyone out there n all of you help me too we are one big family and i love it. yesterday was a bad day but today i see my counsler to spill it all so counsling ,psychiatry,AA,OR,/NA yall can IM me anytime and add me as friends we can do this together
so happy yall took the first step and so happy your here
liz

[stacey1979]

GREAT FOR YOU! I am at day 4 of detox. My energy is still messed up but Im trying to rest the best I can which isnt to well when you can sleep because your whole body hurts! BUT I WANT TO FEEL THAT PAIN!! this stuff is not good for anyone! EVER! I have almost lost my husband and both my kids for this stuff and I refuse to ever take that chance again! ITS NOT WORTH IT! YOU HANG IN THERE AND GOOD FOR YOU FOR GOING TO THE DOCTOR TO CONFESS. thats what i did the first time around and it helped. It made it a lot harder to get them. Anyway dont give up hope because it is there! CONGRATS!!