Does anyone have a good step by step way to quit painkillers?

[Lexy420]

I am 21 years old. I have struggled with addiction from a very young age and I have a biological predisposition towards alcohol and opiates. I am a very high stress person and was diagnosed bi-polar at 14, I overdosed on my meds at 16. That is the same year I was in a horrendous car accident that knocked out the majority of my teeth. I needed oral surgery for implants as well as had most of what was left of my teeth drilled away to put crowns over. This accident had lingering effects, whatever teeth didn't come out in that accident were so brutalized they continue to need painful upkeep with the dentist. I got very strong and heavy painkillers for the first year during the most grueling surgeries and dentist appointments. I still am prescribed painkillers for various issues with pain in my mouth and TMJ issues. I take pain pills when I hurt and when I don't hurt. Long story short I don't believe I need them anymore and fear this is another horrible addiction that will ultimately undo me. I've been on pain pills regularly for about 5 years. I feel like it helps me not be so depressed, other times I feel its a contributing factor to my depression. I am mean when I don't take them and I see myself only taking more and more. An in patient rehab is not an option for me, I have no way to pay for treatment, but being (the working poor) i don't qualify for any help. Also my parents are already dealing with my brothers meth problem the last thing they need is me screwing up too. Although I think they are suspicious of how much I take, and how much I really need still. If anyone has a step by step way they quit painkillers on their own I would love to hear it. Please help me, I'm so young, so miserable and so dreadfully dependent on these. I have considered many times taking my life by drinking some vodka and downing all my pills, I figure if drowning in liquor and pain pills is how I spent my life it would be a quite appropriate and painless way to leave this world. In closing, PLEASE HELP ME.

[buncogirl003]

Free~ is right!  No clue how I stumbled on this site....but it...and everyone got
me thru some seriously .rou3gh days and I just realized it has been 181 days since I last abused pain pills!!  Yahoo!!

Step 1 - decide to stop the madness  Step 2  - realize who great life will be free of pain pills....and I promise you.....it IS so much better!!  Step 3 - reach out on here WHENEVER you need someone!

Take care of you...you can do this!

[Free2agoodhome]

Welcome.....

I was at that point too. I thought a few times  "I hope I don't end up OD'ed somewhere and my family has to discover me".,,,,hardcore thought i know but I really felt I could no longer control the pills.

You found this site for a reason. Please stick around and share as much as you like. A lot of people on here have crossed over and are opiate free.
Read old posts, soon you will read your story in one of them,,,,

I got clean here at this site. The same option is open to you, there is a way to detox and be done.

you're not alone....

Free~

[weaver71]

Welcome, and glad you reached out before you gave up. How much are you taking of what? I understand the pain you feel. I thought I hurt before I took pain killers, but nothing hurts like addiction. I kept switching pills to try and get off the others and ended up on methadone. At the end i was taking about 200mg a day and almost died. I tell you this so that you open up and give more details. Good luck and keep us posted..