Day 3 and still not sober

[LATR]

Hi everyone. Well I am on day three. Its been rough. As I mentioned in my post yesterday my marriage has ended after twenty years on Sunday. So I am dealing with this too. Emotionally I am a wreck I feel like I am ready to have a nervous breakdown. The aniexty level is crazy but I have some xanax to help and it has done wonders. I also have a two year old and an eleven year old. Its tough. I just hope I can keep going but I keep telling myself why I am doing this. I hated the person I have become and I believe my marriage also eneded because of this. Now I am trying to turn my life around. Pray for Me

[GoingToMakeIt]

Congratulations! You are incredibly strong. It will keep getting better.

[marcatj]

i know how hard it is...

many of us have been through a divorce.  and it is painful.

but one thing i kept telling myself is that so many others got through it (millions...) so i would too.

you will too.

with time, it definitely gets much, much better.

but the pills, if you go back, will make it a whole lot harder, and delay the process you inevitably have to go through...

good luck, sweetheart.  you'll get through this.  ditch the pills tho (not the anxiety ones tho - if you really need them.)  trust me, it will only make you feel alot WORSE.

warmly,
mj

[addict200]

You are in my thoughts and prayers, stay strong ur doing great!

[worried878]

i am glad u added that 2nd post!...I know this is a hard time as i divorced after 17 years of marriage from my childhood sweetie..2 children...it was and still is tough sometimes...i did not use then but i have my guilts about other things...and it does no good to go there as it is over and i can not change it....after quitting the pills i realized that my marriage/divorce was one of my main triggers...pop a pill and forget about the pain....there is always faults on both sides as a rule....but i tend to blame myself and relive things....i have come to the conclusion that torturing myself on a daily basis about something i can not fix is totally unhealthy....if ur marriage is fixable then perhaps when u r clean things can change....getting clean is what u gotta do now tho....u r in my prayers and stay strong

[LATR]

Im sorry I mean I am still sober