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[amazongirl61]

I have one pill left, I have been taking 120 10-325 in 2 weeks along some 200 and some percs. Addiction I am a an expert. I have done it all the coke was the worst I lost everything. to moved to California to get away from that and ended up at a pain clinic. 3 yrs later here I am and I am so SICK of this ****!! I need to stop but that scares the hell out of me. Where do I start how do I start??? I feel so sick now had to use the bathroom half the day yesterday, strange  dreams, shakes, this is a nightmare help...

[OpenMind24hours]

Welcome to the site. I found my way on here the same way. Took my last pain pill the day before and was in detox when i got here. None of us got here from eating too many chocolate chip cookies. We're all addicts and have been where you are right now. You got some good advice above for getting through detox, just want to offer support and let you know you can and will get through this by simply having the desire to not want to use anymore. That desire is all it takes. Desire=strength. You won't have to use or even want to use again. Once you get past this detox you can take further action to participate in your recovery. This is a wonderful chance for you to put the pills in your past and have a brilliant drug free future. Congratulations on your decision!! Keep posting and keep on keeping on!

[1sorryperson]

Yes, you've adapted (built resistance to the med, It'll work better if you quit or rotate for awhile)  since you mentioned pot and alchahol, most members on here know exactly where you are at and what you are talking about.  No accusations, no blame, no criticizum, addiction is a natural event to cronic pain or mental depression sufferers.  Lets take this slow and get several more who show up on weekdays, to help you to access your situation. There's many pot smokers on here that smoked it daily for over 20 yrs and will tell you many symtoms dissappeared 6 months after quitting.  Especialy anti-depressants, pot, alchahol, and opiate pain meds users found diet and exercize without any med has brought them to peak employee, parent, grandparent, spouse relations.  Take it slow here and pm with members who are close to your usage, responsibilties, time frame (ie kid's wedding, job promotion,. court date, etc)  Keep posting, you didn't get hooked overnight, give time to put this disease into remission and keep it there.  Communication is your best friend, many pop in randomly,   ...

[amazongirl61]

I go to the pain clinic for spinal stenos I have stenosis all through my body. I also have compressed disks, fibromyalgia,ostioparosis of the spine and right hip. I am prone to migraine head aches, So I take the hydro 10-325 also oxycodone 10-325 and I get 30 fiorinal a month for the head ache. So this is not recreational for me. The pot is I enjoy it while I read and it helps me sleep. I will sometimes take an adavan from my dad if I have not slept for a few days. I am getting immune from the pain pills it seems to take more and more. I am in pt for a torn rotor cuff that is helping. But I feel like an addict, and when I run out too soon it can get very bad. And I seem to do that more and more. I have taken to buying them from a friend to get to my next appt. Can I take them as I should I don't know? I feel I need to stop but how will I manage my pain? I don't get a buzz off of them anymore its been too long.

[toothfairie]

just wanted to lend some support here....as a long time hydro 10 user myself...i know it's scary to think about life without pills....been there....but i promise you it is so much better off the nasty things....you might not think it today, tomrw or even next week....but you will be so glad you are out from under it....great advice from above posters....just keep posting for support...we can help you thru it...and yes, always good to check with your doctor first.  

[1sorryperson]

Do you want your life back?   Most on here have abused multiple drugs.  
Are you on other meds?  What other health issues do you have?  Taper is a must under Dr's care if you have health issues.  If you use antidepressants or benzos like xanex you need to talk to a dr about a taper plan.  Whenever the first 5 days opiate free come you will feel rough even if you tapered.

If you are recreationally using pain pills and just preventing withdrawals, you will have to quit to have your life back.  Tapering generally doesn't work well and prolongs suffering.  You said you were going to a pain clinic not buying off the street, therefore, tell your Dr and try a short taper,  Weed or manufactured benzos is another addiction, similar to alchahol.   Drugs cause anxiety and depression, fear, and paranoia.  Why not get clean a few month, keep checking with your Dr and decide at 90 to 120 days, if you need something, there's too many variable with the weed. You'd be better off under the dr's care for anxiety or pain issues once you are past WDs and see youself clearly.   Do keep posting, some battles take many tries to succeed.

[amazongirl61]

Thank you everyone, I will tell my doc I need to stop how could he not know? He gives me all these pills? This could go on for years if I don't stop. Is it possible to still keep my pot? It has no bad side affects for me but obiously it is not enough. It would be great if that was all I did could keep it there. You don't hear many tales of how pot ruined someones life. What do you all think?

[debsgotcurves]

Also, IT'S NEVER TOO LATE UNTIL YOU ARE 6 FEET UNDER!!  You still have lot's of life ahead, so do it.  Get clean now!  There are still miracles that are awaiting all of us!!

[debsgotcurves]

It's ALWAYS advisable to talk to your doc.  Tell him you want to get off them, and start a taper plan.  Then follow the advice of the others here on the site as far as vit/min supplements and amino acids. The Thomas recipe. Its best if you can taper down to a lower dose first, but for me, I could not do it when I was on pills.  They were always screaming to me, "take me, take me!!". But with help you CAN do it.  I tried to do it alone, BIGGGG MISTAKE!  So keep posting, and asking for help.  If you want help, its HERE!!!

[amazongirl61]

I have run out of my pills 5 days before they are due. I am so tired of being an addict! I need to tell my pain med doc enough. I am 52 and have been addict since 17, always the pot and then the coke. I went into the military to stop the coke, married a man who kept me away from that. But still and always there were the pills. I got divorced and started with the coke again. That led to the crack because it was cheaper and it destroyed my life I had to leave town to get away from it. Then pain management out here the last 3 yrs, thought the pills were better than the crack. With the crack I would binge drink to come down, and I don't like to drink. So now here I am shaking and crying and reading about everyone like me. Should I have my doc step me down? Cold turkey? I want my life that I have never really had, can I keep just my pot? Dear God where do I go from here?

[debsgotcurves]

Hi and welcome. I am new here but already feel at home. Lots of good people here to help.  Best advice now is what 1sorryperson just said. Follow the Thomas recipe and amino acid protocol. It will really help with the WD. Hang in there, and keep posting. My heart goes out to you, I was taking sometimes 100 Norcos  day too. Don't waste more time.  Get clean, life is better!!

[1sorryperson]

You've started by posting here.
look down on the lower right of this page for the 'thomas recipe' and 'amino acid protocal'
Get genuine imodium and take more than recommended for nasia and squirts, bannanas for rls and hylands rls.
go to bed with towels for sweat.
small ice cubes and halls sugar free cough drops to much and keep throat and mouth wet.
Epsom salt with spearmint for daily hot soaks.  The magnesium from the bath absorbs better through the skin.


There will be many more supporters on here soon to tell you how to make it after the first 72 hours.  ie eliminate the source, go to a local AA or NA or church.   Tell your secret to someone important in your life.   Post here alot the first week for any answers.

[VICourageous]

Hi! Do not be scared.You came to the right place.We have many, many of us that have used for many, many years..Including this Ol Girl. Did you taper down form the High Dose or did you just run out?? We are here and can give you some Strength to get you through and the Hope to make it for sure..Just hang tight and fight the flight. I will be honest it is not easy going into different stages of detox and recovery BUT it is so so so short lived compared to the years we used..The Grass is Greener on the other side..Keep checking in and let us know how you feel..We have lots of vit/min we used during the detox and still today..The best thing you can do right now is keep Hydrating the Body & Replenishing Vit/Min & Electrolyte Deficiencies. Good job for wanting your Life back.Yaaaaa!
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