A few of you know that last week I came up to see my husband and was struggling with idea of telling him about my problem. It's been 8 days since I have been here, except for 2 that I went to visit a friend in Atlanta. We have more issues going on except my addiction and making myself open and vulnerable to him has been a serious dilemma in my heart and mind. Anyway, this morning we talked - ALOT! about many things and finally I just put it all out there. He was amazing! He is so hurt that I have walked this road and felt unable to confide with confidence in him and his ability to encourage an support me through this process. He feels partly like the cause because he has caused me so much hurt and pain in the last six months, which in truth has been the time my addiction has escalated, but it's not his fault and I took/take responsibility for MY ACTIONS with my drug abuse. Actually, it has probably helped propel me toward wholeness because I NEED more than ever to be clean to face this life. We are working toward a new vulnerability towards each other and our talk this morning is one more step in that direction. He offered to do/help with whatever I need to walk this road.
Thanks to all you who supported and encouraged and prayed for me/us with this struggle. I wouldn't be where I am today with out you and I hope that I can help you and others in our race toward wholeness!