I look at it like this, God didn't make me like this....... I did this to myself... and God let me live to get over the bad things and to learn in this life I have. That's my belief, the way I was raised and so it works for me!
Ella
I was kinda wondering about all these God references ... I'm rather puzzled how you'd reach out to some entity that let you get messed up like that in the first place.
Know what I mean?
To all who are searching, scared and hopeful. This man can give you hope and comfort. He isn't saying it is easy, he is saying it is doable. Believe in yourself, your God and get some comfort in that ! Post often and let jw give you the benefit of his experience. No one here will judge you or criticise you, not here. Most of us have been where you are right now. Others will come and add their own experiences and ask their own questions and someone will come to help!
Yeah, stay strong.!
Ella
stay strong you can do it. see and i am not bull shitting about this, but i believe if we punish our selves in a hurtful way god does not turn his back he does not abandon you see i searched and searched for answers i was right there where you are i cryed and begged to god, but it was only then in my darkest hour he chose to send his messenger, all i herd was it is not your time yet, thats all i needed. i dont believe he will show himself to everyone, he will most deffinatly make you hear it and feel it. and thank you for the complament. i just know from my own experiences how mean people can be and how important it is to help someone other than yourself. that is the gift that keeps on giving
thank you! you sound like such a kind, thoughtful person. i know is have to look in myself to overcome this addiction but again my fear is not being able to do it! many times i have cried my eyes out begging g-d to help me, give me the strength but i think it has to be more on me to get clean. i will keep posting and again, thank you for your support! ladydi4185
congradulations to you mamm your almost there believe it or not. some people that read my posts read to far into it and think i am doing wrong..
which i am not whene you are an addict that is rock bottom wheather you have a job,family or whatever its like being an addict your setting your self up for failure..
oh my gosh yes i had mood swings, depression dosent apply to me its just how i was raised. but yes it was there its all in your atitude on how your gonna handle it..see its like you have to dig deep inside your self and find your soul. your soul has to be healed first before your body..trust me i have been through hell and back several times no tapering off the last time and no remorse i just made an all out war against narcotics...that is the biggest worry and fear for everyone is the mental withdrawls..your mind will feel like it is depressed but its not it just dosent know what to do with itself..you have to reprogram it all over again from the start....you can do it..it is hell i know but your almost there and dont give up the fight...maybe thats why i dident fear because mamm i grew up in a poor neighborhood where you had to fight to survive...put your life in gods hands and have faith in him i was never religious until i stopped narcotics.trust him he is better than any depressent pill or narcotic...when you have over come it you will feel like you are unstopable, and you will shine brighter than the northern star...i will be here when ever you need it
hi, thanks for the tought provoking post, i really needed to hear that. so many days i sit hear and read the other posts and wonder if i am just weak and will never be off these pills. i am so tired of counting out how many pills i have left, how will i get more etc. i have always gotten them from my dr never off the streets but still i take them every day. i do try to take some solace in that i have cut down from 8-10 day day to 4-5 now but still i just want to be done. i really don't care about the physical wd's i know i can get through that, it is the mental part i am worried about. right now i am tapering my dose down slowly and hoping this will help with the cravings when i stop completely. did you experience any depression or mood swings when you stopped using? if you did, how did you get through it? is it all in your attitude? i know how badly i want to be clean, i just worry it may never happen! thanks again for the great post! ladydi4185
keep the faith and stay strong
thanks ella i just feel in my heart its my job to try and help, i hate to see people going through this temporary pain. its a strength battle, i truly believe pain is just weakness leaving the body. this is our temple and you must take care of it.or it wont take care of you. i read everyones posts and i just sit back and remember what ive done, and what i went through. it was like vietnam in my body a bloody massacur. and to defeat it oh my im a new man. i thank god sometimes for putting me threw that trial because its now i realize life is voluable, this is it or only life here on earth we dont know where we go from here. but in one of my other posts i had my mri check up this morning and i am completly fine now. my spine has healed very well, my discs are no longer herniated no more blood in my spinal fluid. im good to go. i remember before when it started they thought i was paralyzed from the waist down and couldent lift 15 lbs over my head i started walking 2 months after but became addicted to hard narcotics...now im healthy i can lift 200 lbs over my head, and narcotic free and happy...folks need to know they can do it. i am now enrolling back into semi pro football and continuing my journey were i left off
Thank you so much!! It really helps to know that there's someone out there who's been thru so much AND is willing to help others get thru it too!! And CONGRATS to you!! You sound like you've been thru alot!!
bumping this back up to the top for others to read
Thank you for giving those who come on here, who feel hopeless and are looking for answers, the gift of your experience !!
Ella