It's 4:30 am. & I'm 64 hours in.

[strongbutscared]

So, I went to bed at 9:30. I think that's the first time in forever that I went to bed earlier than 2 am. I was usually too jacked up on pills. I was able to sleep. I have xanax from when I needed it months ago for a plane trip. I hate xanax. It makes you feel down...when my drug of choice in opiates always made me feel energetic and up. But anyway, I took one, and slept. My child has some kind of infection going on, and around 3 am woke up with a once again spiked temp of 103. I got the fever down and the baby back to sleep, but here I am...unable to sleep. However, I am thankful for the few hours that I did get. So I'm sitting online playing my time consuming yet pointless facebook games....but whatever passes the time! I'm not far in, but I'm damn proud of myself right now. I feel like a got run over by some sort of large vehicle! haha, but I'm here. Alive. without opiates clouding my mind, and who I am. All of you keep me strong as I fight this fight alone at home. Posting is very theraputic for me, so forgive me if I overdo it and get annoying! From what I've read, today should be a crappy day, more so than the first two days...and I am prepared! Like I said in another post...I am laid off and get my unemployment check today, and I am prepared for the temptation that will give me. I sit here and wonder tonight, how many people are like me? How many people have the picture perfect family, with beautiful kids, a wonderful family, wonderful parents of mine and wonderful siblings of mine...a beautiful place to live...and yet a secret addict was amongst it all. I'm sure there are alot, and as selfish as it sounds, I find comfort in knowing that there are many out there like me...& that I'm not alone. My symptoms as of now are INSOMNIA!!!!...extreme exhaustion, chills. For some reason, no sweating. that could change, but for now, none. weird huh? I've been able to eat...in fact, I've been hungrier than I've ever been. Maybe because before when it was time to eat I was popping pills instead?I've had some stomach issues, but immodium has been my bff. I have a constant antsyness in my that I'm missing something...duh...i'm missing my pills. I'm so used to waking up, taking one. Go online? take one. talk on the phone? take one. time to clean? take one. I'm rambling again. I hate that it's almost 5 am. I love that I'm opiate free at 5 am. Today, my energy and focus will be on taking care of my child who has come down with something. I've always been a great mother, but today, will be the first time in his life....that my energy will come from ONLY the sheer love and devotion to him....not those two things mixed with pills. I love you all for putting up with my rambling!

[freedom007]

We certainly are...we should all be very proud.  I can't believe it is midway through Day 5...and getting better by the minute...not hour, now.

Keep chugging...together, this can never beat us!!!!

[strongbutscared]

just got home from taking the baby to the drs...ive been up with him since 3 am since he is sick but im holding on. i went to the atm to get $ out for his antibiotic. wow, that was very very hard. it was hard to not just take 100$ out...and i dont even have it to spare! and like a big dork, i came out of the store smiling like haha! i didnt do it! now im sitting on the couch eating a subway hoagie....and in just under 2 hours wll be 72 hours clean. 72 hours without percocet. or vicodin, which was always my back up plan. thanks for hearing me out again! im hoping me & my sick babe can maybe take a nap! doubtful, im deilirious yet unable to sleep! thanks everyone...oh & im writing from my phone so im not sure of the name of the person whho started out with IM JUST LIKE YOU...but its really cool to know u just 2 hrs behind me. we r doing this! yay fo all of us! :)

[pharma9]

I think all of you should be proud of what you are doing.You are doing it not only for yourselves,but for all your family.Keep up the good work and the acute withdrawal symptoms will be over very soon.I stopped codeine over 2 months ago when I realized I was using T3 to cope with things rather than for pain relief.I never did more than 10/day but still had withdrawal.I now take extrastrength tylenol for my pain and it works just great .I don't even have as much pain as when on T3.I sometimes feel a little guilty for being here because my problem was not as severe as others,but feel I can help others with their withdrawals.I have no desire for opiates at all and just made up my mind that I was not interested in the "kick" they gave me.I did the same thing with cigarettes 26 years ago and just decided these things have no place in my life.I do drink about 3 glasses of wine a week.I love to hear each person's success story

[freedom007]

I have my sons 18 month Dr appt tonight...gonna be tough but I know I can do it...no other choice...on day 5, btw...and things are getting better.  A week ago I simply caved in after 48 hours because I had sick kids the entire weekend and no wife to help (not that she wouldn't, but was busy with some visits from outoftowners.  I started over (but not entirely) on Sunday once I had them taken care of...and it is day five now...7 hours until 120 hours of sobriety...and getting better by the minute.  

Anyway...kids are possibly to biggest motivator to just push through...can't sleep on em...it is hard but very gratifying.

[Jaybird30]

I am also the parent cleaning out.  Just changed a diaper and didn't have to pop to do it...dang I'm proud!   I'm well behind you but I tapered drastically to aleviate some symptoms!  

[WDsRawful]

I am JUST LIKE YOU!  I am in high profile job, extremely active in my church, a family, good life, a good suburban home in a good suburban neighborhood, blah, blah, blah and I have a secret that no one knows about.  I mean no one!  But, I am here and I'm 2 hours behind you and I'm feeling good.  I'm also like you that popped a pill to clean, pop to take the dog out, pop to go grocery store, pop to go to work, pop to watch a movie...ridiculous!  But, we're doing this!  Me and you - we are doing this!!  I'm so very proud of you!  I have no sweating either..  Just chills and stomach mostly.  I can live with those.  Immodium is also my BFF and my big fuzzy robe at home.  lol   Either way I just wanted you to know I'm with you.  Keep up the good work!  

[strongbutscared]

thanks for ur reply! insomnia *****! hope we both sleep soon=]

[SuzzQ]

Congratulations!!  Keep it up... eventually you will be able to sleep... and so will I.... : O )