here i go....again (slap to forehead)

[crash22]

i am trying to get off the meds ......again.  so tiring.  after my last filed attempt- number 3- got up to 23 days (slapping my head as i write).  i came to a major realization- i will never be able to stay clean if i font cleave some of the toxic people in my life.  i have found that not only my pain increases but my drive to use more meds than im prescribed when dealing with these toxic individuals.  i do realize that these situations arise in everyday life and its something i have to learn how to deal with in a more productive manner but for now i need to limit my contact till i get there.   how have u changed your way of dealing?

i am at the cusped of starting my fourth and final attempt.  oh- i do have therapy setup and have started on depression meds so i can learn new techniques without sacrificing my wellbeing

[crash22]

oh and i think your advice on making myself get out of the house is great.  i noticed i tend to isolate during wd

[crash22]

its hard to explain but everything was just dulled- i think it had a lot to do with depression - now that i think of it.  i plan on quiting once i have been on the depression meds for a few weeks.  at this point- im trying to get everything in order and work on myself before i jump.  jeez - am i really here again.

the therapist i choone is a pain therapist which means she is not only going to be helping me work on my issues but also alternative techniques for pain management.  she is also a dealing with chronic pain (doesn't use meds )
so it should be really helpful.  

[vicki595]

I did a few things: I began swimming everyday. I volunteered at a school...made myself get out of the house more often.  It was all in an attempt to change my routines and it worked for me.

I'm never bored as a rule so maybe that makes a difference and I LOVE to read so there's always that...it's true though, motivation changes without pills but only briefly. It's all in your head!

[crash22]

what do u do about the boredom?  i found that the first weeks, after the horrible detox, i don't know what to do with myself.  i keep busy- have 2 children, but  everything seems less interesting.  

[vicki595]

LOL.  like I said...I've always avoided toxic people!!    Just take a break from them and you don't owe anyone an explanation!

[crash22]

what if their family.  lol


thanks for the advice vicki ;)

[vicki595]

The therapy and new meds may do the trick this time!  You're right about staying away from the people you "use at". Also, be sure to eliminate pills in your house and all access!

For me, I had to change up ALL daily routines and that really helped me stay away.. Ive always avoided toxic people, so that was nothing new! HAHA

You'll need plenty of distraction to keep yourself occupied. Post here as often as you want, especially if you're fighting a craving!