hey everyone

[soaddicted]

Wow it has been so long since I have been on here. First I want to say thank u to everyone on here that has helped me on here! Since the last time I have been on a lot has changed. I finally found a job after about a year of searching and I have a really good job that pays great! But I'm still struggling on a lot of things and I just want it to end. For ones that know me and the ones that don't I got clean because of legal things I got caught for. I took someones credit card number and order things off of it to get my kids christmas and I got clean because of it. I would of never done these things if I were sober. I'm so scared I go to court august 2 and I don't know what's going to happen but the lawyer seems to think because I'm 32 and never been in trouble that I will get probation. Boy I hope so I have a lot to lose now. I'm not going to lie I have relapsed a few times with some pills but I'm back on the straight path and I'm staying that way. Just wishing for some words of wisdom right now to help me get thru this. I have actuallt thought about suicide because I don't want to be put in jail. I never have been there and never thought I would ever face time. Please pray for me!

[Bad_Obsession]

I was re-reading my response, and it sounded kinda rude.  I'm sorry.  What I meant to say was....I know its hard.  Before I got clean, I continued to use, despite the fact that it was destroying my life....so I know how it is.  I just meant that you are going to have to get serious about quitting...before you DO end up in jail or even worse...dead.  You have kids, and I would hate to think about any kid having to deal with a parent that's going away because they broke the law...or because they died.  And that's exactly where addiction leads....it leads to jail, institutions, or death.  That's it.  And I have a son, and it kills me to  think that I, at one time, was looking down that same road.  But I finally, after many tries, finally got clean.  Please do whatever it takes to get clean...if not for you....for your kids.  I really hope you don't go to jail...but if you  do, then just look at it as that's the price that you had to pay....do your time, learn from it, and never repeat the mistake again, and make the best of the rest of your life.  

Good luck to you...God bless.  Keep us updated, please.

[Bad_Obsession]

Hi. Welcome back to MH.  Prayers are coming your way.  How long have you been clean this time around?  Have you been going to aftercare?

I wish you luck on your court date.  I hope you do get off easy, but please don't say you think it would be better to be dead than go to jail.  Seriously...from what you say, there's a good chance you could go to jail.  I know that *****, but you have to come to terms with that.  I mean..you have kids, how can you say that you would rather die?  You screwed up...we all do.  And in some way, you are going to have to pay a price for it.  Yes...I hope you have already paid that debt, and I hope you don't go to jail....but if you do,  you just need to learn from it...and never ever repeat the same mistake.  You said that you have relapsed several times....despite the fact that the drugs are what got you in this mess in the first place.  You even admitted that...you said you would have never done that stuff if you were sober....but yet you continue to use??? Check out aftercare....you're an addict.
I know it's hard.  It's hard for all of us...but it sounds as if you have not come to terms with the fact that you have a problem.  I don't mean to sound rude and i'm sorry if i do...but that's what I get from you.  You continue to use,  despite the fact that it's destroying your life (and possibly landing you in jail).  I think you need to come to terms with that, and do some serious thinking about getting clean.

God bless...and good luck!

[mellie4]

Please try to ease your worries.  I work(ed) in the court system, and I can nearly guarantee you that you will NOT go to jail.  Most judges are very lenient on people that are trying, even if they slip along the way.  You may have to pay restitution and you may get a lengthy probation but that may be for the best, to help you stay on track.  If you go into court and are genuine and honest, the judge will sense that.  They see this stuff every day and they can tell who's just talking and who is really sincere.  Be honest, respectful and dress appropriately (you can't imagine how some people come into court.  They like to see respect for the court.  Answer with Your Honor ... common sense stuff.)  I've worked in the courts for years and I can't tell you how many people come through because of addictions.  Some learn from it and go on and have amazing lives and sadly, others go through a revolving door, over and over again.  I have never seen anyone go to jail over a credit card theft (even that has a previous record.)  Just keep doing the right thing, stay away from the drugs, show you have some aftercare in place.  Please don't lose sleep over this.  And I hope you'll keep us posted on how it goes.