how much longer?

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I know it seems like such a childish question. I did not get myself in this deep over night, but I feel like fighting my addiction has become my entire life. I have been clean from coke for just under one month now and tonight I am seriously considering if it was worth it to stop.  I feel like I gave this fight just about all I could. I am not sure its a battle I can or even want to win anymore.  I have felt this way for a while now and have not been able to shake it. I am starting to think it is more than just being depressed. I was so much better at everything when I was high and I miss feeling good about anything at all.

GoingToMakeIt · Answer

As you said, you didn't get into this overnight. It takes a long time to let your body and mind to heal. 1 month is just the beginning. You have done so well. Don't throw awy the hard work you have done this last month. Each month gets better.

Florida_Guy737 · Answer

Hi - I know exactly how you feel.  The first time I quit ct and after 75 days, I said forget this because I wasn't no where near my old self.  This time, a few years later, I became educated about what was happening with wds (PAWS), body chemistry, depression, etc.  You're feeling things that are normal right now; not good but normal.  I'm almost 6 months clean (Jul 2) and haven't felt this good in years...believe me, no bs.  The first 4 months were up and down, sleep issues, minor anxiety, etc but as more time passes, things level out.  I believe 2 years clean is when I can hopefully feel completly normal again (Read the PAWS info).

Don't give in now - 30 days is a very good investment for your future.  Keep going - we'll be right here with you.

Sincerely,

Guy

worried878 · Answer

gotta give it some time..hang in there...they say after 90 days things get much better...stay positive..and exercise when u can..it helps

cathy5841 · Answer

no dont give up.  you have come too far.  you can make it.  like i told you it was about 2 months for me too.  and it is worth it.  i promise....i know you know it is in your heart, but your addiction is trying to get drugs.  dont let it win.  stay strong.

gizzy32 · Answer

you have done so well, don't give up yet. with the amount of coke u used, it takes time to heal. i told you weeks ago around the month mark it would get tough, your addiction is fighting and telling u what ever it can so u will use. don't break now L, your so close. for me it took almost 2 months before i started to fell normal after quitting coke, but i promise you it's worth it. hang in there my friend, i know you don't want this **** in your life no more. STAY STRONG

Decisions · Answer

ps I  am on an iPod so srry for the abbrieviations

worried878 · Answer

I think it is kinda normal to think like this sometimes..for a while after quitting...but there had to be a reason why you quit...think back and repeat the reasons u quit...write it down if u need to and hang it on the frig...I have felt this way...like "who really cares whether i use or not"   there was a valid reason for me to quit tho....as time goes by that reason can seem like less of a threat than it really was...but it was real or u would not have gone thru all of this and quit..hang in theres

Decisions · Answer

try to think back to who u were before using. U didn't think of having to get your hands on coke then right? Its hard to find the real person after using so long . Don't give up and remember the drug will call u for quite some time.  Ingore the call it won't kill u. 
Stay strong and save yourself!

cattalina · Answer

I can feel your pain through your words.  I completely empathize with you, and I'm sure alot of other people can too.  Getting clean was definitely worth it, and you can absolutley get through this.  I know right now it seems like life really *****, but you gotta give it more time to really make that decision!!  What you're feeling right now will NOT last forever!  I know there's not much to say to really make you feel better, but I can tell you that I've felt exactly what you're feeling right now and I made it thru it.  So can you!!  Stay strong and keep posting!!

sadinmichigan · Answer

I think many of us have felt that way at times..It is worth it to stop..Get out a piece of paper and write down all the reasons why...$$ health,etc..You may think you were better at everything high...but what did everyone else think?? Remember why you wanted to quit in the first place..drugs give us a FALSE sense of well being for a time..and then the real truth sets in..and generally others can see it before we can...Please don't give up..It's only been a month and we all need to learn how to function in this life like we used to before drugs..it is possible..and it takes time.