Lonely

[joy11159]

Hey everyone! Tonight is my hubby first night back to work on 2nd shift! I think I've done everything I can do to keep busy. Today is my 14th day clean and since I'm not useing I don't like to watch TV and before that all I did. Any way is anyone out their still up and want to chat?

[10356]

Yumm Choc cake and you are right Feeling is really a blessing.... Enjoy and I will look for you tommrow.. good night..

[joy11159]

Don't forget not feeeling anything!! Its really help chattting with! You probaly won't believe this but I'm going to close and bake me a choc cake ha ha I'll be on here tomarrow give me a shout. God Bless!!

[10356]

Wow I'm really very happy for you.. Working your recovery :) I second that it is good to be clean !! Not counting pills.. taking care of yourself.. noticing things.. and my favorite laughter.. Welcome to the other side :))

[joy11159]

They are nothing to mess with I had used for 15 years tried to quit alot of times but also went back. I never thought I could do it INTIL I ran out and could'nt get any. I ended up in ER then  when though med detox now I see whats its like to be clean and its great! I go to group 4 days a week then I'm going to na 1 night a week. I guess this is the first time I every really wanted to quit. I can look in the mirror now !!!

[10356]

Thank you !! I'm proud of you.. although I have never taken loratab.. I have read of others and they really seem to do a number on you.. My Dr. offered me those in lew of norco.. You could imagen my response :) He will not be offering me those !!

[joy11159]

My habit was Vics and Norco and Lortab!!!  The ice thing has just started. I'm proud of you 5 months!

[10356]

I have always loved to chew ice.. the best when it is half melted :) I'm a lil over 5mo. clean fro a nasty norco habit.. How about you ?

[joy11159]

Thank you for coming back to me! That makes alot of sense. how long have you been clean and what was you taking? And do you crave ice?

[10356]

Perfect sence !! Even though hubby was home for my wd.. he slept at night.. I would sit out here as quiet as possible on the forum because sleep was not happening.. and my emotions.. omg hubby had knee replacement so the last time I kicked was with him.. he had a tolerance but not the whole mental thing going on.. nor did he know the physical except when I told him hehe... anyway we were both crying at the stillest things lol it was really something....
I created a lot of pics in my profile for this very reason.. I would sit here late with nothing to do so I started reading profiles and looking at pictures.. It gave me a lot of knowledge security in that I was not alone and something to pass TIME :))

[joy11159]

I feel pretty good I just hate these long hours. When I got clean he was on day shift and I was busy everyday going to group so when I got home he came in right behind me. When I was using i was by myself all the time and I loved it but now I feel like a big baby I don't know what to do with myself does this make since?

[10356]

Hi Joy.. I like your name :) I'm lesa.. I will be up for a few minutes.. congratulations on 2 weeks that is awesome.. you must be very pleased :)) I know what you mean about tv.. it seems like I could watch rerun after rerun.. now I get bored and it sounds brash.. So how are you feeling tonight...