I have been wanting this for so long! i have been very depressed for the past 6 yrs, much had to do with my abusive ex, and stress of being single mom to 3 hard to handle children(they have some med cond that take much attention and time), going to school ft(i do have a degree now and working on MA, almst done). I hope to enter the workforce this fall as i will be finished my school. however these past years I turned to drugs n heavy alchol n smoking. My dr put me on antidepressants, many kinds, all most didnt work for me, finally the combo of celexa (40mg), wellbutrin -highest dose possible, doesnt say on the pill though, i just told i cant go any higher, and clonazepam and zopiclone for sleeping is my current combo and has been for a bout 6 yrs - minus the experimenting in the beginning. i was still so misreble, dr added a thyroid drug called cytomel to jumpstart my meds, it seemed to work a bit. however i had also already started on the percocets(not dr prescribed) as they seemed like my miracle antidepressant, i had energy to clean house, do wonderful things with kids, do great school work, it seemed perfect!until i needed more n more, broke, addicted, no good affects anymore, just on them to keep from the worst withdrawals i ever felt. i did try over n over for a year to go cold turkey on the percs, as i did manage to quit the alcohol n other occasional drugs i was taking when i didnt have oxy based drugs, i also turned into a very heavy smoker. so i went to dr and i was put on methadone, it took away all w/d for percs n oxyz, i startd 3 wks ago, at 30 dose, n went up to 50 dose, as i would wd the next day, but at the 50 dose(1 wk) i have no w/d. so i been clean from booze n other drugs 3 mths, percs oxy 3 wks-but on methadone, cigs 1 and half weeks but on nicorette. I feel better, way better, except i find myself tired, i dont need the zopiclone or clonazepam either since the methadone, except i am maybe too sleepy, i go to bed early bc i am so tired. i have also been having severe constipation probs. i have been hearing all this negative advice on my being on methadone, its like i should have just stayed the way i was. i couldnt stop any other way, i dont intend to be on methadone for long, i have been on 3 wks, i was thinking like 8 wks, i m not going over the 50 mg dose at all, i plan to start tapperring off at week 6, so i could go off gradually. what do you all think of my plan? i also want to stop all the anitdepresseants, they dont help me anyway, i have tried stopping those befroe and they made me feel really crazy, angry-weird feeling,etc. so i know i have to taper off those as well. is methadone that bad?