Heyy I am back and feeling crazy.

[Happinessbythekilowatt]

Vidoin / Hydro W/d.

Lately it seems as if I am going crazy and my life is like a blur. My vision, my memory, my mind has been racing constantly, I get confused often, I am really anxious and bored all the time, I catch myself pacing room to room. It seems as if my life has grown dull I have honestly been trying to think of a reason to live. I want the old me back, the old state of mind, the old way I used to think, and see, not being so anxious. This all happens when I am not on the pills.


Might it be that I have been trying to come off of a 2 year binge of these pills of 8 and more a day. I will eat em every day for a week or two then think wow why did I do that I don't want them, then I will withdraw for a few days and feel like **** and crazy then go right back to taking em for a few days or a week then quit.

Could this be making me feel so crazy, depressed, anxious, bored with life? And when the hell will this pass if I stay off of the pills? I always go back taking them out of boredom or to not feel like **** or to not feel crazy. I want the old me back. =\

[lostsoul2]

Yes that's what causing all these symptoms!!  When I was w/ding the depression was awful.  Sleeping was nearly impossible and then in the mornings my heart would race and I felt like crawling the walls.  I paced all over.  You have to give it some time.  It seems like it will never end but it does.  I never realized how much I missed myself until I started to see me again.  Take it from a recovering heavy vic addict.  Life is SO MUCH better without them!!!!!!!

[Happinessbythekilowatt]

thank you for the help.

I figured that was what was making me feel crazy heh. My problem is adapting to life without them, trying to figure out what I did which made life so fun to me before I started taking them. I have never had an addiction before until I got on the painkillers. I went to the bar tonight I am on day 4 or 5 , not sure, but I couldn't stop moving and twitching. I was pretty pannicky too but held it off good in front of everyone. I wish they would knock opiates off of the shelves. Might as well give out heroine for pain.

[shelby001]

could you possibly get something for your anxiety, maybe depression?  i am on day 13 no vics and still don't feel great.  in other words, i still miss my pills and the way they made me feel but.......i know popping pills, getting a false sense of happiness, is not a way to live, so, i'm pushing forward everyday.  things do get better, you just need to give them time.  and yes, i think going on and off the pills is probably causing havoc on you mind and body.
shelby

[Ronnie152]

Yes the pills are whats making you feel that way. Starting and stopping back and forth your body dont know whats its doing. I was taking more vicodin a day then you and I stopped ct. If you could stop for a couple of days you can stop for good. WD's will make you fell like sh-t! You can have the old you back. It's going to be work, but well worth it.
So dont look back, you go this. Life is what you make of it. Don't live in a cloud. best of luck to you.