last day without and scared

[sad1258]

Have been taking Lortab 10 for 4 years.  3 months ago got kicked out of pain clinic...got caught getting them from primary doc and pm..stupid!  I have weened from last rx..have one more left. No one knows what I am going through..have no one to talk too...I am extremely sad, anxious and trying to act normal...will I ever feel like I want to live again?????  Please someone talk to me........

[sad1258]

Vikki--are you ok? what was it.. will you talk about it??  Look..I think things like this are going to happen...look what a great day you had!!  Just let it pass!!!!  You helped me get through the past 2 hours..I was actually smiling and getting some things done knowing you are doing so well(last post)!! You helped me...crying is healing you..so get it out and dry it up and think about the day when we are going to meet and know we beat this together!!  So if I can do it...you WILL too!!!! You will not leave me!!!!!   THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!!!  (we just want it to pass alot quicker than it is) BUT LOOK HOW FAR WE HAVE COME!!!!!!WE WILL NOT GO BACK!!!  hope you are feeling my hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Cantdothisanymore]

was doing great or so i thought - trigger hit - cant stop crying like a baby.
i HATE this disease

[sad1258]

Wow Vicki!  You sound great!!! I am so happy for you...God I want to feel good again and not have everything seem so BAD!!!...just got back from walking 2 miles with the family...still smiling, still trying..with that empty pit in my stomach....hey sunshine...I bet your counselor did flip..that is wonderful..you should be so proud..you are reaping your rewards for all your hard work!!

[sunshine1109]

Hey all I am back had a long day at the cardiologist have to have a cardiac catherization on wednesday morning ughhh Im scared but ive been through worse Ill get through this...I am so happy for you cantdothisanymore...awesome attitude you go girl!!!! Im loving this..and Sad I hear ya your doing great and I think a anti depressant would be good I was on one for awhile I was on Zoloft..they recommend i take it for a year but I did 8 mths and they tapered me off.....I saw my counselor today havent seen her in almost 8 mths I figured I was in Gainesville so I stopped by and she about flipped out when she saw me, mind you I was skinny as you know what and just sickly looking, since then  I have gained 40 lbs I only weighed 110 when I was there and Im 5' 8" so imagine...she said I looked healthy and was so proud of me it was a great feeling.....she said to me this is what makes my job worthwhile..Well you two keep up the good work it pays off please trust me I know.........love to you all ..Sunshine

[Cantdothisanymore]

ssad (audra) i am busy as hell at the moment and feeling dam good about but want to talk to you. wont be able to post all i want to say til tomorrow but wow - it GETS better and you are only a few days away. Lots of love and all my soul can offer you is coming your way from me.  i think of you 24/7 and i NEED you to know that. I wish i had time now to give more but my recovery is hanging in the balance at the moment and i HAVE to move NOW.  watch for me tommorrow.  I will be needing you and i want to help you in return.  Left you my number on pm - do not hesitate to use it.  All my love.  Vikki ( I WONT DO THIS ANYMORE ) no longer I cant do this anymore. i have turned my corner and just waiting on you hon.  Shouting out to dav and sunshine - everything i sais above to sad applies to you too!  to us all.  I am gonna rock this f'ing disease and kick it's a$$! I just know it!

[Mom309]

i think a antidepressant would be best for you at this point...i have been taking celexa and it has helped me so much.....