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[aloneandempty85]

Alone, terrified, addicted to coke and hiding for 4 years. anyone out there? I need to know this is real.

[aloneandempty85]

Physically, stopping is nothing more than a pain in the ***, but emotionally it is who i am and why i live. I am watching my life fall apart. I am so sorry to burden this forum and probably upset a few people. I dont know what will happen, i wish for death often but when it comes to it. i am a coward. thanks to you an everyone for the concern. I promise i will check in later on to let you know i am still around.

[what2donow]

Im glad you are still here...talk to us ok.If need be I can get Gizzy on here

[devildoggy1]

I was addicted for about 5 years and I know what it takes to get back in touch with yourself. You lose who you were and you push everything away without even wanting to. I made the decision to live life with the same effort I was putting into getting lifted and turned it all around but I had to hit the rock bottom of everything and end up with that choice and take control. It was the hardest thing to do but the greatest thing that I ever done and I hope that I can help you do the same...lets start by getting to know you a lil bit to break the ice sort of speak..

[aloneandempty85]

I am here. I just dont know what to say. I guess I jumped into this before I was ready.   I thought I was ready to talk or atleast type, but despite ruining my whole world, coke has been the one and only thing keeping me here.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You sound like me in the '70's - short story - I did coke, I liked coke way too much, I sold coke to pay for mine, I sold a Fed DEA a kilo and went to a non-country club prison for three years.

There are no physicacl w/d's from coke....and psychologically I dont think that its any worse than PAWS type mental things from opiates. Coke use can be stopped easily (especially if there is none in front of you) but if there is any in the house it will (literally) scream at you and wake you up and yell "Do me!" until you give in. This drug screams "Do me" more loudly than the opiates - some type of post use help is a definite if you wish to be successful....been there - - best of luck to to u - it can be done - eagle -after two or three months it will even quit yelling. Just dont listen the first times...

[confused456]

Thank you Dan. I have no personal experience but I am here for any and all support. Thank you.