me again!!! :-)

[iamintrouble]

Well, that smily in my subject should be a frownie. but I'm working on being more positive. I saw in my last thread/post that somebody said I should be doubletrouble, well I would like to do that. IDK how to change my screen-name on here though? It would be a start to being more optomistic. In fact, I dont like my name already because one day I'm going to beat this SH1T and I will not be in trouble anymore and I will be doubletrouble to any issue that comes my way. The way I used to be. I used to not wory about ANY issue! ANY!!! And now everything scares me. Hmmm.
Well anyway,  Hey gnarly_1 if you are still out there and reading this, no harm no foul right. come on back to me. I need everybody to respond to me. I dont really want to write the following, but for those not clued in, here is my problem,
qty 10, 10/325 norco per day. 10 years.
qty 2 10mg ambien per night 2 years
qty 6 12oz beer per nigh 18months.
This is my absolute consistency in life and I want to get rid of it. I hate it. I'm getting so pissed off at it. I want to see what its like without it. I guess beingg single/living alone/etc. doesnt help. I need to start talking to more poeple. Something about just talkin to people helps. Except I always get those people who think they are being paid by the word and go on and on and on and on and ON AND ON AND ON!!! It never fails. I end up wanting so bad to be alone. Owell. those are my thoughts for the night...God Bless you all. I hope to hear from you soon, but if not, Merry Christmas. :-)
-me

[Toby1863]

Hey double_trouble,

I'm glad you're working on a positive attitude! That could be the key? Being double_trouble is only one step away from being triple_trouble and before you know it you could be the King_of_Slovenia or whatever it is you really truly want!

Good for you...I know it can be tough but try & keep up the positive attitude and good things will surely come!

Toby

[dominosarah]

And if gnarly forgets to say anything i am usually right behind him!!!

It is so nice to see you with some fight in you.  Now lets put that energy into getting you on the road to recovery~~~~~sara

[gnarly_1]

Hey....glad to see you back.....and more so ready to fight for your life.....this disease is killing you for some its slowly others O/D and are taken quickly ....I rattled you tree to wake you up to the urgency of getting clean I have been around this forum and have watched addiction take lives just this week we lost a 37yr old young lady to complications of addiction her nic was cronicmistake  It breaks my heart to read stuff like that...I devote a lot of time trying to
keep that from happening to people...I will go out of my way to help anyone that truly wants help this is a viscous disease to beat your ether all in or it wont work attitude is everything
I spent a good part of my life on this stuff now I devote my life to helping set people free
your habit is moderate dangerous but moderate thats a lot of acetaminophen for your kidneys now some people taper...most addicts cant so C/Tis the only way for most of us
you need to put 4 days aside 5 is better but 4 will get this done when your ready we got all kinds of stuff that can help you threw this ...try not to let fear into the equation it only makes it worst and its always worst in our minds then it turns out to be this is 1/3 physical 2/3 mental be ready to fight on both fronts....the mental side will be more difficult for you because of the length of time you have used....keep in mind this is a battle one or lost in ones own mind....when your ready to begin will be out here....I might not always say what you want to here but I will say what you need to here...it only because I care if you make it or not...your life is worth fighting for.... as you said no harm no foul.......Gnarly