OK, I know that w/d is different for everyone....but I don't understand why I am still having the physical symptoms of w/d and it has been 9 days. I was taking 7 to 10 oxycodone 7.5/325 a day for about 6 months. Before that, I was taking about 10 Vicoden 5's a day for about 2 years. I have never snorted my pills but have always taken them orally as prescribed....so I really didn't think w/d was going to last any more than 3 to 5 days. At day 5, I was hoping to at least start to feel a bit better but there seems to be no change. I tried getting out yesterday and found myself so sick by the time I got home, I had to lay down and passed out from exhaustion.
I did call my Doctors office again and explained I was getting no better and I told them about my passing out episodes. Of course, my Doctor wasn't in so they had the nurse call me. I feel that the nurse has a grudge against me or something because she has been really mean to me lately....she sort of made it sound like to her, she felt I was making this all up and said that if the problems persist, maybe I should go to the ER. She even went as far as to tell me I wasn't my Doctors only patient and she feels that I am being too bothersome to him due to my "being addicted". That really depressed me when she said that. You would think they would be a little more understanding and supportive. This has me on the verge of just giving up....I mean, if I don't have the support of my own Doctor..........I guess they see me as nothing more than a total addict who is just looking for my next fix. It isn't like I can just go get another Doctor either because I have no kind of insurance. I don't know what to do. I am still sick with all they same symptoms and I can't take it anymore. My family is suffering also now.
I talked to some other people throughout this week who had similar stories as mine to tell....and they all said that after a couple months, they too were no better and were still having many w/d symptoms so they gave up. Is that why so many fail? I sure wish I would have known all this when I was first prescribed pain medicine....I would have never gotten the script filled.
Last night, I called my Doctors Office Refill line and called in for my refill. I don't know if they are going to refill me or not. According to my conversation with the Nurse last week, since I flushed my pills to help with going cold turkey, I somehow broke the contract I signed and that they were no longer going to be able to prescribe my medication to me. I don't understand that either. I really feel at this point I was better off on the weaning program. I think now that I have experienced this week of pain and frustration and sickness, I will be more apt to stick to my schedule for fear of feeling this way again. I was also on the waiting list for Suboxone, which I also feel I am going to need to help get off the Oxycodones. Now, I am just not sure if my Doctor is going to do anything for me.
Thank you all for your support and for listening. God Bless and have a safe and happy weekend.