It's finally time for me to stop

[Isitoveryet555]

Hi everyone I'm new here. I'm a 17 year old male addicted to oxycodone. I range from about 20-30mg a day and have been taking them for 2 years roughly. I'm currently on day 3 of withdrawl and I know I don't have it nearly as bad as anyone here but I'm still feeling terrible. Today has been the worst day so far and I'm just wondering if I were to take half a pill if it would bring me back to day 1 or ease the withdrawl at all. Right now I'm in a depressing mood and don't feel like doing much at all. My lower back and legs ache. My legs aren't restless anymore which is good. And I can't get anysleep naturally so I took an over the counter sleep aid pill which helped. If anyone could answer my question above it would be so helpful. Oh and I haven't taken any for 3 days and I did not taper down

[Cassie415]

congrats on 3 days...I think if you were to take that half pill it would just start the wheels turning in your head and before you know it you'll have taken 3 more pills. That's how it always works for me, a little line of oxycontin turns into a huge line of oxycontin and just doing it one more day turns into just 3 more weeks. Since you've already got 3 days behind you, try to stick with it, you're almost past the worst part and you can focus on other things. I am in college right now and am struggling with this and it *****. congrats on starting to get sober, 3 days is really good.

[bmdad]

I'm not sure if keekee's response was a typo but it does get better, much better. I myself am tapering off of vicodin at the moment due to another back surgery but have been through the withdrawals before. I was over 1 year clean prior to this and each day is a little better than the day before. You have to dig deep for that willpower that you have buried down inside. Everyone has it, you just have to find it. I would not take that 1/2 pill. The problem is, you feel that 1/2 of a pill and then say, what the heck, I'll take one more and before you know it you're back at square one. Once addicted, it's almost impossible to just take one and not have it turn in to a full blown problem once again.
One thing that I have found that helps more than anything is exercise. I know it may seem impossible to muster up the energy to do so, but force yourself. I've done it both ways. I've laid around all week feeling miserable and I have forced myself to go for walks. The time I exercised made it much easier. It really helped speed up the whole process and I felt better in a shorter amount of time. Also be sure to push the fluids and eat healthy. Anything you can do to help your body during withdrawals makes such a difference.
Like many others have said, you are so young and have so much ahead of you. You seem very mature for your age and that's a good thing. Most 17 year olds that have a addiction rarely recognize it this early. It's great that you realized this and are seeking help. This forum is a great place and will help give you the tools necessary to get clean and stay clean. I agree with Gizzy about talking to your father about locking them up. We as addicts can be very vulnerable when we know pills are just a arms length away. Maybe even talk to your old man so he can help you through this. The more people that know, the better. It helps by having people watching out for you and listening when you need someone to talk to on those rough days.
Just keep hanging in there my friend and you will make it through this. Kick this habit now and never look back! Post on here as much as needed and read as many posts as you can. It helps so much seeing the success stories and helping by posting to the ones in need. Since you are on day 3 things should start looking up here real soon. I know days 3 and 4 were the worse for me and it was all downhill from there. Just stay strong and stay motivated. Try and keep your mind busy by reading, listening to music, movies, etc. Just do anything you enjoy to help make the time go by faster. We are all here for you and if you need anything, please let me know. Best of luck!
Brian

[gizzy32]

Since you got them from your father and you think he knows you take them, could you ask him to lock them up? Addiction is so progressive and usually gets worse and worse as tolerance builds. I am so proud of you for stopping, but sometimes we need to make a change to make sure we stay off them. Your whole life is ahead of you, don't let this destroy it bud. Talk to your father if you can, I think it's really important. In moments of weakness it's so easy to say **** it, I am gonna take a pill, but not if they are not around. Good luck and please stick around, you have got some great advice and support already. Hope you feel better soon.

[leeisgettingclean]

we think alot of sh@t when we are w/ding. not only would oyu not have the will to do it, i would not either! I have only been clean for 55 days, still very weak! Good luck man and pm me if you need anything! keep posting here, we are here for you!!!

[Isitoveryet555]

Your absolutely right. I don't know why I could think that. I wouldn't have the will power to do that

[leeisgettingclean]

hey just a thought, You can break the dependacy never the addiction...what i am saying is that YOU CAN NEVER just break the dependancy, i have tried. You will ALWAYS go back to being dependant, thats what addiction means, we can not take pills just for fun when we wanna, we will always be right back dependant after that first one. YOU CAN NOT JUST BREAK THE DEPENDACY OR I WOULD HAVE DONE THAT AS WELL!!!!

[Isitoveryet555]

Also I'm getting a lot of moodswings. This has never really happened to me

[Isitoveryet555]

Wow thank you guys so much for the replies. I was first introduced to them by my father when I fractured my foot playing hockey.  And I'm sure he knows that I take them from him because it is a large amount to be taking from him everyday but we never talk about to to eachother. To lee, I understand what you mean but it's been on and off today as to whether I want to break free from the drug forever or to just be free of dependancy although my goal is to quit forever as I'm sure everyone elses is. My mind is set to not taking that half pill or even any ever again. Keekee, what do you mean it will not get better? Thank you guys so much for your support you don't know how much this means to me

[keekee57]

All I can say is that you are lucky at a young age and congratulate you for admitting this. It does not get better know matter how long you stay off of it. Time is on your side and you have so much to look forward to doing. You are man enough to admit it, the dt's will not last that long as your system is still fresh. Give it time and there are many herbal medications to help you fight this off. The first one is pottasium and then milk thistle. They work great along with a long long walk for the next two weeks, you will bounce back to human form in no time. My hats off to ya, remember IT DOES NOT GET Better!!! Stay with us and keep us up to snuff even if you fall down. Just dust yourself off and give it another brave try. Life is good.

[leeisgettingclean]

to ansewr your question, I would not take 1/2, it prob want help much, and the only way to get past w/ds are to w/d, so just get it done, you are 1/2 way there!!

[gizzy32]

First of all, congrats on 3 days clean. I would suggest not taking even a half, your more than half way through the worst and will be feeling better soon. Your so young man and on a low dose, so it's great your stopping now. May I ask why you started them? You should be feeling better soon. Does your family know you were taking anything?

[leeisgettingclean]

Please dont feel that " you dont have it as bad as others", your worse is the worse you know! You are so young to be on this path buddy. I am 25 and have learned the hard way that this is NO life. You are to young! I am sure you have family, girls, future and all that to live for and I promise you that drugs will only cloud your mind and put all your future on hold! You are already on day 3 so you are half way through the fight! IMO after day 3 it gets ALOT better. Depression is norm with w/ds, there is smoe stuff in the health pages that people say works for that. I am here for you like many others on here! please stay around. Please dont get through this only to think that once you broke the dependancy of needing pills everyday that you can use occasionally, dependency droken stills leaves addiction! You will need aftercare! please keep me posted and if you need anything let us know!!  : )