methadone detox

[shortyma336]

why did methadone clinic let me start there if they knew i had been on xanex for 8yrs and its so deadly? I am at 15mg of meth for 17 days now.I want off the meth asap!! i was on pills for 3yrs due to pain issues wanted off but too afraid of w/d i feel so supid now i could have delt with 3 or 4 days of w/d but now i feel i have doomed myself to long tapper. I am afraid every day when i have to take some xanex too keep from having a seizure that i am going to die.This is no way to live i am terrified. I am 31 and a single mother of 3. I told my clinic i wanted to go down to 10mg but they say i have to wait 8 more days to see the doc first.funny if i had gone in and asked to go up to 20 it would have been done no problem. this hole thing makes me sick. I wish i could just walk away but i am affraid im stuck.any help or advice would be so appreciated im scared to death here!!

[shortyma336]

i dont have take homes because i have only been there 18 days now and they have me on benzo protocal which means no take homes and you cant go over 40mgs but they started me on 20 it was way to much for me i was close to od. i know i need to calm down and just deal with it until i can get detoxed. the dosing nurse can be a hateful lady she was asking me today what i want if i want to go down 1 or 2 mg a day.but either way i have to wait till i see the doc on the 7th to start. i didnt know i could go down 1 or 2 a day i thought it was a week?anyone know if it would be ok or smart to go down that fast? i have only been there a short time and at a relativley low dose.

[shortyma336]

no i am not off cold turkey they told me id eventually need to taper off or switch to suboxone clinic. i could never just ct i would die i believe i have cut from about 1 1/2 mg a day to less than a 1/4 mg 3 times a day and i feel like im loosing my mind i really do need the xanex. i am on dissability for 8 yrs for pts and severe panic dissorder i think for a sec in time i thought i could possibly quit the xany to stay on methadone but i think that was the stress of the time and the fear of opiate w/d. now that ive had time to step back and think i know that i can live life without opiates but for rite now i can not live a normal productive life without my xanex. I just want to come off the meth asap! and cant seem to get the clinic to let me do so. they just want to drag it out and take their sweet time and in the end that will only make my detox slower and harder!

[Gasten]

So you are off Xanax cold turkey after 8 years and they knew it?  How much Xanax were you taking?  Was it a small dose?