methadone

[sunshinedaydream3]

not looking to be lectured, told how stupid of a decision im making, etc.  id like to hear from those whove been on it.  i have no problem with thinking about being on it for the rest of my life.

currently on sub.  i feel empty and hollow.  

it has helped me alot.  full time job and school.  

i been through alot, me and my girlfriend of 5 years were supposed to have a baby - she was still born (my GF never used drugs and hated that i did).  i had planned on asking her to marry me after we had the baby.

but after that all happened, we were fighting and depressed and ended up splitting up, we had dated for over 5 years, since i was a in high school

after all of that, started using got out of control - ended up on sub.

now, i just feel empty and hollow, no emotions. have totally isolated, im depressed.

i know im not ready to be off of medication assistance and from my battle i dont think i ever will be

i've been depressed n constantly thinking about gtn high.  i just want to feel good.

i am going to switch over to the methadone clinic.

anyone in here at the clinic

[CODEINE900]

ITS A DIFFICULT SITUATION YOU GOT THERE ....i can understand you completely and at times it made me think too.......whats the point when everything seems so futile and why should i not feel good? but deep down you know thats not what you are after and thats the reason you come here and post .just know this that opiods are not a natural chemical your body needs and everything after that changes no part of the body works right from the ailementary canal to the brain to the sweat glands everything is in havoc so jus listen to your body and try not to end posting here on a question mark ........try using a fullstop its a powerful symbol the fullstop.........ill end it there.

[mr.lucky66]

I'll clarify what I said as requested. Methadone was a good thing for the first 2 years. I could work and was somewaht productive and funcioned. After that I got bored and started taking benzos and other drugs. Back in those days I was on lower doses becaise MMT was more restricted and  no sky high doses. The way it is now is overused and too high doses producing sedated looking methadonians. When it was working for me well, it was on about 40- 50 mg. It becomes like a different drug at higher doses and got ugly for me in later years on high doses.

[sunshinedaydream3]

Codeine - thanks, your probably right in that i come here for support.

mr lucky - thanks alot, i really appreciate the clarification.  i understand whatyour saying, and i guess i'd probably become bored with it at some point, i usually do w erything else

[bmdad]

It seems you may be looking at the methadone as a replacement for the oc more than for a maintenance program. I just get that from your last post saying you'll probably become bored with it. Like Lucky said, it is now overused and many people end up going to the clinic to get a "legal high". If you can stay at a low enough dose just to keep withdrawals at bay and to keep you from using oc, then great. The problem is that just like any other opiate we end up building a tolerance and end up taking more and more trying to chase that high once again.
Have you talked to a doctor about all of this? You'd be surprised how willing doctors can be to help you through withdrawals if you are open and honest with them. You have been through a lot and can see how depression would be a issue. Also as I'm sure you know depression comes in full force while going through withdrawals. There are some safe medications that can be prescribed to help with withdrawals and the depression. Have you considered talking to a doctor about getting some help?
I'm not saying to not go the methadone route. I really can't as I have never taken it myself. I just know it is a opiate so is really no different than any others if you take it for the wrong reasons. Just like pain meds, if you take them as prescribed and only for pain as needed, we usually don't have much of a issue with them. If we start taking more than prescribed and not for pain but for the high, then the problems really start. I just don't want you to take methadone for the wrong reasons.
Can you take a AD while on sub? Maybe that alone could help. You just have to be careful about what types of medications you take together so always check with your doctor or a pharmacist. I do know that benzos and methadone together can be deadly from what I have read on here. So that may be another thing to consider if you are taking benzos for anxiety.
I'm glad you are doing your research and educating yourself before making the decision. Hang in there and let us know what you decide!
Best of luck!
Brian

[gnarly_1]

hey dude..seen your post and it is difficult to answer honestly..but from experence
I spent 6 1/2 yr on methadone started out for pain management but wound up at a clinic..(long story)...annyway  after being on it so long it is hard for me to post annthing positive about it...it did help for pain and it did keep me functioning on the job 3yr longer then the dr sayed id be able to work...but like mrlucky said after you been on it a wile you notice the side effects ...
I started at 40mg and wound up at 150mg it deffently has its side effects...if your a guy witch you are....be ready for your sex life to come to a crashing halt..also I would
nod out at the most inappropriate times...to the point my wife thought something was wrong with me...it also makes you emotions numb you sorta stop feeling annything
this is no way to go thew life dude...and then there is the BIGGY....getting off it
it took me 8 1/2 mo of tapering and to say the least it was extremely difficult
ive been clean 33 days now and it still messes with me from time to time...
im not trying to slam your idea...but only trying to give you an idia on what to expect
if you go down this road...got to run for now pm me if you want more info
good luck with what ever you decide....Gnarly  

    

[mr.lucky66]

Well put gnarly. Methadone can be a good thing for the hard core addict but is a very serious step. The website NAMA is very pro methadone and believes anyone should get methadone and as much as they want  for as long as they want it. They are content to go through live as constipated sweating zombies and that's not the way methadone works best for addicts nor was it ment to be used like that. all the best