methadone...smh....:/

[DPQueen]

well,im back....i posted about 2 years ago....did two days n went back. BUT its all different now..my so called free  pharmacy is no longer available as of sept 15. i took my last 30mg of mdone 10 days ago...this is the only time ive HAD TO.....other times i jus knw i needed to but couldnt cuz it was n my face daily. so, ive been takin hydrocodone 10 & 7.5 n the day time.n i knw im harming myself cuz i can take 8 10s at a time wit no effect...at nighttime OTC sleep aid, lorazapam n a flexeril for sleep...i knw what methadone withdrawal  is..ive done it twice. and ive done morphine withdrawal. im jus curious if lm really masking these horrible withdrawals or r they gna catch up to me whn i run outta hydros, etc? even still ive had a whole day friday of tremor type things whr i had to mve my arms n such n it was hell. anybody else ever done this? used other drugs for a short period of time to get off a bad one? i know, i know: y trade one for another...i know that line all too well. I GTTA FIND MY OLD SELF.

[gnarly_1]

you have beat the worst of it from here its just time.....time will heal methadone can take a wile to get over it not like the pills just hang in there and know every day is a victory..........Gnarly

[DPQueen]

im still here guys...still no methadone in almost a month...im battling this depression/fatigue and failure feeling...its jus almost worse than restless legs...anybody...somebody: how n the world do i get thru this rut im stuck in??

[DPQueen]

i been takin methadone since april09.. more on than off... pretty regular....not a clinic...given to me. never took over 30mg a day....smtimes jus 10-20....for no reason...backache n thats all ths person gets so, thts how it started...i quit twicw before for bout 2weeks but couldnt handle the fatigue n depression...but now,i have no choice...no clinics here n i dont have a med history cuz i never go to the dr..but, im n no place to give advice...but i wish i was only at 10mg...n jumped...i jus dont have the willpower to taper myself...good luck to u..

[DPQueen]

yeah...ive jus been on methadone....jus tryn to ease methadone withdrawals...worked so far...i knw. i jus got the ativan n flexeril for this reason. been 10 days so far...i feel the fatigue, the depression, etc... but yeah....all of it. thanks for responding...:)

[snowflake24]

hmmmm......well how long have you been on methadone for and what were the doses? I think if you quit the vikes you will be in pain.......i have titrated from 80mgs, down to 10mgs this thursday,,,,,,,been on this stuff for 11months at the methadone clinic........think I should just quit at 10mgs? anyways good luck

[nursegirl6572]

Congrats for wanting to get clean.

Are you wanting off everything, or just the Methadone?

If you want off everything, you're going to have to cut your sources as per the very smart people here.  Taking all that other stuff is just delaying your w/d, really.  Do you take Ativan regularly?  If not, I wouldn't advise starting that.  That's not something you want to have to come off later, as w/d can actually be dangerous from benzos.

Are you trying to taper?  If you've been here before, I'm sure you know the drill and the recommendations, and they things you can do (Thomas Recipe) to help ease w/d's.

I would worry if you're trying to come off everything, that having access to the Vicodin, Flexeril, Ativan...may be problematic.


I wish you the best!!!