Can someone help me? PLEASE

[DmanX]

Hi people. WHere to begin, Ill try to make it quick.  Im taking this as an answered prayer.  Ive been asking God to help me with a problem Im having. So, anyway, I went online to order some Tramadols (ultram) and it brought me here. Im new, about 5 minutes.
I need help
I have 3 herniated discs in the lower lumbar region. WHen It happened, I was prescribed 90 10mg Hydros. I didnt know if they wouild help or not. I had a high tolerance as it was with drugs I overcame in the past. Cola, Meth, and what not. I overcame these addictions with alot of prayers.
back to my problem
I started taking the dros like the directions said. Sure enough they worked. But as time went on, 90 was gone in 2 weeks. I never knew that "A PILL" could grab me like it did. My doctor refilled this for me every month for 15 months. The pharmacist finally told me he was uncomfortable and to fine a new pharmacy. So then I realized this was a serios pill. I liked it, ALOT, moreso than ANY drug in my past,. Well, soon enough, the FDA stripped my doc of his license for prescribing too much Oxy and controlled substance.  I still had 3 refills left. I found out when I went to pick up my refill and they said they could not fill the bottle due to my docs situation. I had to find another doc, which was hard to fine one as generous as him. Soo, I found out I was straight up addicted to the bone when I ran out. It sucked, had some issues. I found help from a friend who gave me some of her tramadols to help me ween off.  I thought this was a blessing. NO withdrawal from Lortab whatsoever. Welll, soon enough whenever I thought I had overcome my Lortab addiction, I stopped with the Tramadols.
Day 1.and 2...Major digestive problems, Constant sweating but very cold. extremely depression, and insomnia due to severe twitching when I tried to sleep.
I thought I was sick or something until my wife said she had read on the net about Tramadol.
Well to cut the story short
Tramadols are controlling my life. I take around 35 a day. Its a constant struggle worrying about running out before Fedex gets here. I cant go to work if I dont have any. I wake up and take 8. I take 6 2 hours later. I take 8 more at lunch. I take 6 m,ore at 2. Then I take 8 more around 5.  then sometimes I take another 5 or 6 before bed. I havent had a healthy digestion in such a long time. My vision seems to be getting alot weaker as well. I could go on and on how the pill has changed who I am. I need someone to tell me what to do.
Just stopping is what some might say, but I tell you, that is out of the question. I try to taper, but it seem sooo hard by myself. It has brought me to tears many times. I cant see ANYONE unless I have a strong dose in me.
This has to be what heroin is like. This has a grasp on me100 times more than Hydrocodone or coke and meth.
I want to have the pain in my back again as long as I dont DEPEND on tramadol. Can someone pleaaasssseeeee tell me what to do. IM DESPERATE
thank you
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[worried878]

Hnading over ur pills and writing out a shcedule to quit may be ur best bet...gotta have a plan and a QUIT day...taper down until them...it is har when u have this pills in ur hands tho..hand em over and make a plan

[FriaryGrad]

You wrote that the withdrawal is more than you can tolerate, but that's not true. You CAN tolerate them -- especially if you focus on what you'll be getting (freedom) rather than what you're going through temporarily.  Think about and then revise your "self talk" if you can.  Don't say "I can't tolerate the withdrawal" instead say "I'm dreading the withdrawal but I have decided that I will do what ever it takes to be free from addiction and I know that I can do anything I put my mind to, including enduring a few days or even a week of withdrawal pains."  Make a plan and stick to it....and then do it.  After you go through withdrawal you will be a new, even stronger person.  I'll be praying for you, too --  

[broknbck]

Well you are going to run out sooner or later. so a taper is the least uncomfortable to me anyway. you will have to get someone to help you with that. pick a day and that is that.

it is much easier if you plan it . than if it just falls on you and you are stuck.

[flmagi]

*Also look up in the HEALTH PAGES for the Thomas Receipe and the AMINO ACID PROTOCOL  these will help you.

Withdrawels are miserable, no doubt about it.  But it's doable. And the worst of it is over in 5-8 days. Thats not bad. You're just really sick for a week..thats all.
Man-Up and JUST DO IT.

[flmagi]

Is your wife aware of the extent of your problem?  If not, you should tell her. There are only really 3 options.
Cold turkey: The fastest way
Tappering: have your wife dole out your dose to you.
Suboxone: Use short term (under 21 days) to get past withdrawels; Used long term, it is also addictive and needs to be tappered off of.
We are here to help you and give you alot of the support you'll need. So keep posting and start making a decision.
Magi

[Dezdon]

Hi,
Your telling my story except I am on different pills. I live for the FEDEX guy. I try and balance my dose ages to no avail. The withdrawals are more then ican tolerate and Im stuck in this vicious cycle. I hate my life right now. All I can think of is do I have enough to get me through to my fill? I cant bare the thought of another withdrawal episode.
  I hang in this forum searching for the right words to be said..somewhere, anywhere, that may trigger my recovery. it has been gobs of help and reminds me of where i am. maybe If i didn't hang here so much, i wouldn't worry so much about the withdrawal's.
  I know this is a room of help and hope. i am search here looking for it. I hope you can find the same.
-Dez

[mosaicsjo]

maybe what would help is if u find some one 2 hold ur pills for u and give out the right amount per day until u taper down