norco

[Lyn212]

WEll, I just got my last refill (my dr said no more) and he only gave me 20 pills, usually he gives me 60 with 2 refills.  I am a;ready starting to feel anxious and I don;t know why.  I want to stop taking them, I am just so afraid, the pain I have prevenst me from doing much of anything and I have become this lazy person that just sits around taking norco all day long.  I am already sweating and worried sick about this. I don;t know what to do. I don;t think I am mentally ready to stop yet, but now I may have to.

[nldfw]

Hey Girl!!!  Calm down.  Breath.  Remember when you were 10 years old... or 5 years old... and you didn't know about drug addiction... take yourself there.  Close your eyes and splash in a sprinkler on a summer day.... blow bubbles w/ your friends..... giggle in the dark at night w/ your friends at a slumber party... take yourself to a HAPPY HAPPY day in your life.  Remember every bit of it- feel it- smell it- taste it.  When you feel your heart beat settle- open your eyes and take deeeeeeeeep breaths in/out/in/out.  Then talk to yourslef.  Tell yourself you can do this, tell yourself you're not a slave to this drug- you are only human.  DON'T LET THIS CONTROL YOU MENTALLY.  I KNOW that's hard to actually do- but it's TOTALLY do-able.  Let yourself be vulnerable, yes, but DON'T think too far into how you got here or why- or anything- atleast not yet.  You can worry about why and all that jazz when you've got 7-10 days under your belt and start w/ the mental stuff. Today- focus on getting through it.  You can do this.  I know you can.  Just DON'T be hard on yourself- it will only hender you.  We are ALL human and we're not losers.  We're just people- people who happen to like to have a good time!  Hahah.  We're some of the funnest, funniest, spiritual, friendliest people in the world.  I've always really liked addicts- we're not the norm.  We're special- and in a REALLY good way.  Please talk to me if you need to- seriously- I'm totally here for you :)

[Lyn212]

my mind is racing all over wonderig what I am going to do to cope with this...I am a mess today.  This norco has taken over all of me it seems.  It is like if I don't have a full bottle of it, I am worried about how I am going to get more.  I have to have a tooth pulled this week, maybe they will give me a new perscrition, but it is so embarressing asking for "norco" or something in that catagory.  It is like it instantly makes me look like a druggie.  If you were to see me, I don't "look" like that.  I know, non of us do, I am sure.  This is such a let down,  I can't believe I have let my life come to this.  I never even knew I had gotten this out of control.  Now it is the only thing on my mind, the norco.  I can't even think about trying to get stuff done around the house, showering seems like a challenge today, my mind is totally thinking about this week when I run out of my 18 norcos...I am so sad about this.yuk.

[Lyn212]

I just read about the kratom...where do I get it?  I saw it on ebay, is it like a vitamin? I have never smoked, done "drugs" or drink really, I am pretty skeptical to order something like that from ebay wondering what it could possibly do to my body.  Ittied to go as long as I could today without taking one of my norcos, within 7 hours I was hurting allover, sweating, restless.  It was only 415am and I had to take a half and go back to bed, then at 630 the same thing, I woke up to all the same withdrawls...I have a feeling this is going to really be hard for me to cope with.  I don't handle pain very well, never have really.  This will be the worst pain I have ever had, I am sure. The fear is really holding me back from wanting to stop taking them.

[mr.lucky66]

Fear is the worst thing about withdrawl. Just say, "give me your best shot mr. jones". At least I did after a few times but now don't have to go through it any more. Face it and it will be so much easier. All the best to you Lyn.

[watermom]

Scootch....you didn't post in the wrong place at all.  I just wanted you to post the question in the forum too so other people could give advice.....You are moving around the forum just fine.  I am getting my legs as well.  I sent you an invite to add to my friends list.

Let me know what you plan to do....

[Scootch]

sorry about posting in the wrong place.  I am having a hard time getting around this forum.  How do I add you to my friends?  Thanks for the advice and I think I posted again in the main area.  How do I PM you?  I am so lame!!!  I am going to try to figure it out.  Good luck everyone.  I think I need to go have a serious discussion with my hubby about trying again.  I have been to afraid to tell my doctor for I do not want him to take away my easy refills in case I change my mind or if my pain ends up being worse than i thin and then he wont refil because I have told on myself.  Iknow it is the addiction talking but it is loud and clear.