norco

[Lyn212]

WEll, I just got my last refill (my dr said no more) and he only gave me 20 pills, usually he gives me 60 with 2 refills.  I am a;ready starting to feel anxious and I don;t know why.  I want to stop taking them, I am just so afraid, the pain I have prevenst me from doing much of anything and I have become this lazy person that just sits around taking norco all day long.  I am already sweating and worried sick about this. I don;t know what to do. I don;t think I am mentally ready to stop yet, but now I may have to.

[watermom]

Lyn....

Hi......Glad you are here.....

I agree with everything nldfw has said.  We are detoxing together and it has helped me so much.  She will make you laugh!  I am on day 6 and norco's were my choice as well.  When I didn't have them I did vicodin.  

I am a mom as well. I have a 4 year old and a 7 month old.  I have had a problem on and off for about 4 years I think...but really bad the last 7 months since my son was born.  I was off when pg but got the percocet in the hospital and out the door I went with a vicodin presciption and a refill and the entire thing started over.  It makes me want to cry that my son's first 7 months are a blur.  My turning point was when I was freaking out because i knew I wouldn't be able to get any for a couple weeks and my daughter wanted to go for a walk.  I couldn't find my son's sun shade for his stroller and I said to my daughter "we just can't go...really snappy" she started crying and said "but mamma I will find it I promise" and my heart broke.....I think I even said "shut up" which I do not do".  I wasn't myself.  I hit bottom.  So I told my husband the next day that I had "The monkey on my back again" and he knew what I meant'.  He isn't that supportive...like Nicole's husband he is a "walk it off kind of guy" and he has real problems...like gout.  He won't take anything.  I would try and make him take a pain pill until I realized I wanted them....he would say "Don't I have any"...NOPE.....I am still waiting for him to find out I got them filled from his Doctor AND his friend who is a doctor in his name for a fake gout episode....he will be pissed.  

Anway....my hubby is the only one I came clean with.....Just so happens both my kids had the flu right before so it was easy for me to tell my mom and inlaws that I had the flu.  My mom came for two nights then my inlaws took them for one night.  As nicole said.....you really can't take care of your kids the first 3-4 days.  On the 5th day I said "I am going to get my babies"  They are my inspiration.  Of course during the first 4 days my son was incredibly fussy and I took him to the doctor and he had an ear infection (poor little guy)....point is...I could NOT have done it without help.  Do you have anyone that can help when you get the flu?

I would tell your doc and see if he can help.....He has been giving them to you (I was getting from a few different sources so I couldn't really fess up).  He SHOULD taper you.  I agree again with Nicole...get something for anxiety if you can.  Some people do not agree with that approach but if you have two small children you really need it ...in my opinion.

I am feeling much more "present" with my kids...I have been taking walks....and I am about to go into the hot tub with my daughter.  

I also knew i was doing the right thing when my daughter keep bringing me pictures she was drawing for me to get better...as I lye there saying I had the flu.  Talking about ripping your heart out.  

Let your children be your strength.  Oh and I will send you an invite to be a friend as well.  I will never judge either.

[watermom]

Oh...you need to invite me.....that is if you would like to.....

[Lyn212]

I just talked to my hubby about this, he said he wont take time off of work when I get the "flu"..lol.  I guess I could see if my mother in law could keep them while he was at work and then he could pick them up on the way home. Is it hard to even have them in the house when you detox?  I hope it is really only a few days of the physical stuff.  I am really a baby about pain, I don't deal well with it (hense the problem I am in)...by the way, the exact same situation for me with giving birth.  I knew in my heart not to take that perscription when I left the hospital I knew it might turn into a problem for me.  It is sad, but DR's want patients to be comfortable, don't they know what happens...it sucks!

[watermom]

Lyn,

I am sorry your husband won't be more help.  You will need help.  It is hard to have them in the house to be honest. It depends on how old they are. My 4 year old wouldn't leave me alone to sleep and my 7 month old was whinier than I have ever seen him.  I was going nuts.  I knew something was wrong that is why I got the strength to take him to the doc and he did have an ear infection (my mom was here watching them).  

You know I was thinking today because people were posting about "triggers" and what to stay away from once they are clean.  Many people said there mom.  I know I do not want my daughter on a message board like this one day saying "My mom is my trigger" because I was a vacant mom.. This isnt' to make you feel badly, please know that....but it makes me want to stay clean. Just thought I would share.....

We are here for you.

[Lyn212]

this is such a life changing thing, I would have thought hte vows that we took when we said in good times and in bad, he would want to see me threw this.  I told him isn't a lousy 4 or 5 days worth having the real me back, the one with energy and not always sitting around...he didn't seem to have much to say.  I kow this is my problem, not his.  It has hurt us, I can tell he is hurting because he doens't understand, it seems simple, just stop taking them.  If only it were that easy...I am sure this will not be easy, but it has to happen sooner or later.  YOu are 100% right, my kids need it, the deserve it.  Your baby is only 7 months, you haven't missed that much, you still have lots to look forward to, his first steps, words, giggles, you can get it all in now and you can really be you enjoying him, you know.  It is a beautiful thing, to be a mother...

[Lyn212]

I am already sweating and it has only been a few hours since I took norco, that is scarry!!!