Relapsed...........oops!!

[jddancy]

I stopped taking oxy in Feb 2008 and had bad W/D's.  Read my posts.  My husband continued to use with a Dr. perscription.  It was hard not to use, but I didn't.  BUT in Aug, my husband was electrocuted on the job and alot of stressful things were happening and I took one of his 40 mg oxy's and just took a small chip off and WOW!  I felt better.  STUPID me!  I thought of just for a few weeks.  That was it!  I continued to take them until we couldn't afford them about 1 1/2 months ago when he had to change to Norcos 10/325.  I got up to taking 3 at a time 2-3 times a day.  I finally weaned down to 3 a day and I am on my 3rd day clean.  I don't feel as bad as I did when I was on oxy but I just want to lay around and my legs are driving me crazy!!  I am so tempted to just take one........  I wonder if it would matter and would I start over?  I have to do my sisters bridal shower on Sat. and this is Wed. If I take just one, does it start the whole process all over?  I know that this is not the right attitude but I have sooo much to do and all of you know that feeling.  Has anyone ever got DLPA from the health food store?  I heard it replaces and fixes your seratonin levels and dopamine levels.  Thanks for any input!!1

[worried878]

one is never enuf..and u know that..and yyes///it will start the cravings and everything again...may do ok for a bit then it will be 2 then 3 then right back where u were when this whole screwed up cycle started..hopefully u dont have one near by as u sound like u r gonna cave..if u do then pick urself back up...that is the addict talking not u...u know better..u cant ever have enuf pills to satisfy u...not ever

[Newlife3737]

I just wanted to let you know, that I was clean for 5 months, and I had the flu with a really bad headache. I had to work despite being sick. My husband who is still using had vicodins, and I told myself I'll just take half to get rid of the headache. By the time came to take one I said to myself I might as well take the whole one if I'm going to take anything.That's all it took I was using full blown by the next day, and did so really bad for the next month. Then I had to detox all over again.

[gizzy32]

It does not sound like your ready to give them up yet. If w/d's are your only worry, then there is so much more you need to learn. Although taking one, would not set you back physically, mentally it starts all over, except each time gets a bit worse. I tried and tried to use here and there, but each relapse got harder to get back up and my addiction just gained strength. With pills in the house I can't imagine how hard that must be, myself I could not do it. When we are ready to be clean, there are no excuses and no here and there use. I say this meant kindly and from my heart and would hate to see you keep getting caught up in this viscious cycle, it just keeps getting worse. You got some great advice here, keep us updated and keep posting.

P.S. Look in the health pages here for the thomas recipe and the amino acid protocal, it may help:) Good luck

[nick30]

hi there,

do you actually want to be clean? if you do then you know that you must say no. what if it did start the w/d again? you could be going through them on sat?
c/mon, don't be silly. look after yourself.

nick

[kim715]

There was just a post up by someone else about this yesterday.To quote what allaboutmary said to the other member here..'a dirty house won't kill you but the pills will'.Just think about it.I hope you decide against it.All the best...Kim

[jddancy]

I am soo sick of feeling no energy and my house is a wreck!!!!!!  I know the cycle, I did it before.  My husband is short himself so I CAN't take more than one.  I know it's a bad idea, these things hold you down but it is so tempting and If I KNEW it wouldn't start fromn day one, I think I would.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Outotown told it like it is ...... best of luck to you ..................

[outotown]

I think most of us has gotten clean thought we could handle it and take just one, these thingsare like tator chips you cant eat just one. I dont think it would start the w/d over. But it would start your whole process over know what I mean. Good luck and dont use my friend.