opi ate to many opiates

[opi]

hey all,,,,,,,,lots-o-new folks here....this is good,,,also bad...lol....for those that know or remember me i was doin ok for a bit then went off the deep end again....i orbed back into the oxycontin coma.....this went on for a while...{scrolling pages of the calender}....doh....lol...i thought i was on a month or two run,,,,just realized it has been ....well...lots of pages....i am back on day two ct.....TWO....{my number keys don't work and was more interested in drugs than pc repairs....you know}...anyways yes,,,,,day two.....i forgot how much it ***** man...the ready to use cheese grader on my flesh feeling is back...i have been rollin around on the couch for a couple hours,,,some good fights on tv to suck my mind empty but the fights are over....was heading to take a hot bath before i have to cut my legs offs and let em run free but wanted to touch base with ya'll...<---only type like this,,,not speak it....i have been fighting the urge to post as i have been wired and did not feel it was fair...now i am shootin straight so i will post and get **** off my chest...as i learned long ago it helps,,,{i've allready put down the hack saw...see medhelp rocks}.......to all my homies...hope you  are well and if not medhelping anymore i hope it is due to being powerfull humans and able to walk a the walk...if not and are hiding like i was..well,,, pm me...i know wussup....ummm...hmmmm...guess that's all folks,,,,,i'm fightin the good fight...got ur back...peace

[sunshinedaydream3]

i totally feel u, i am exactly where ur at, just wakin up to reality and trying to fight the fight before i slip off into another few months of shame ....

good luck with it , stay strong
keep n touch

[broknbck]

devil indeed!!!   if these drugs are not the devil himself then who is he?

i know what you mean about quitting. i was trying to quit for like 2 years. and finally made it by tappering down first. but that can only be done if you have stopped chasing the high for a long time first.

heroin- hah, that is what me and my kids called my pills all the time. " i don't feel so good today kids, i did not take enough heroin" of course they are all grown up and on their own. they really helped me thru the whole thing. always cracking me up and wanting to take care of me. they are the greatest.
hope that your wife hangs in there. it is a lot on them, you know.

[road2recovery]

I was just thinking about you yesterday!!  I am so glad you posted...Even going through w/d's u never loose that sense of humor that i love....
YOU will make it..I don' t have to tell you ( you have been there done that)  that relapse is a part of recovery...
but i have no doubt that you will be ok
Please keep posting , you can help out so many here...
Keep the faith
and you were soooooo missed!!!
hugs to you my friend
r2r

[cathy5841]

hey opi good to see you back...sorry you are on day 2 again cuz that really bites.  your humor has been missed.....i hope you are gonna get some aftercare this time around.....we all need it....and i hope you stick around and make us laugh some more......welcome back.

[opi]

sorry....slow typer....lol....shaky...i'm guna try a bunch of stuff...i've got a list.....oops....forgot to scratch off oxycontin on the top

[opi]

i love oxycontin,,i mean i hate it...anything opate is my doc...oh....so it turns out that heroin is not a good substitute for oxy's......lesson learned...move on.....i do make jokes man but it is a very serious issue....i try to explain to people that i quit everyday for years.....wake up...todays the day man...yup....oops...nope....lots of guilt n shyt goes with it...well man...the time has trully come....it aint no joke....i'm tired...wifes worn down.......can't go on...stay tuned though,,,i do like to laugh when cuttin rug with the devil...peace