Can't quit.

[aloneinok_04]

I have been reading here or have reached out to a few people, but I don't think I am strong enough to quit, I have tried so very hard , it makes my heart sad I want a better life, but this is just the life I have now. I'm not sure what else to do now. It feels like a big black hole, that's no one knows about, it's my own personal battle I have lost.

[overopiates]

I sent u a private message+friend request

[atthebeach]

Hey my friend,
I am so happy to see you posting. Yes you can do this.
Now is the time for that flushing party.
Hun the longer you stay on the pills the more defeated you feel.
You are reaching out again and still.you are strong enough to do this.
You want to be free of the pills. You have to step on the road to recovery.
There is a lot of  support for  you here.
Please keep posting. Let today be your last day of pills.
Sending hugs and prayers
Debbie

[donewitis]

49 days...not 48 :)

[overopiates]

Ur strong enough ur not giving urself enough credit.U r setting urself up4failure by saying ur not strong enough.U have2go n2this w/the attitude that its pills and u will NOT let a stupid pill rule ur life.None of us would b able2quit if we had a defetis attitude.WE HAVE ALL FELT LIKE WERE N A BLACK HOLE.I'm gonna tell u I felt like I couldn't quit that the pills were stronger than me.I had2face the truth I was LETTING them make me feel that way.I didn't remember life w/o them.They were my best friend(worst enemy too).It's hard2say goodbye but u have to.No matter how  much u say u want a better life u have to make it a better life.U r the ONLY1who can do it.Ur saying ur not strong enough YOU ARE BUT u have to prove it to urself.As addicts we all want a better life but thats just talk u have2b willing2do what it really takes.Words r cheap+mean NOTHING w/o the mindset of I'm really done+will do it NOW.U HAVE2B REALLY READY TO QUIT.R U WILLING2DO WHATEVER IT TAKES?Ask urself that.At least h honest w/urself.If the answer yes ur strong enough.IF I CAN DO IT ANY1CAN!!!

[donewitis]

Start with the pills, then maybe therapy/counseling for 'this long story," believe me..that's what I am going to do..just have to work out the ins/finance issue. I definitely need that...and so do you. I have 48 days opiate free..still working on the benzo..which could be for awhile..I want to be done..and I want energy. I have to be patient.  Grab on, admit you are powerless over these pills..if you want to, you can do this. You have to have the desire to want a better life. I'm telling you...you are worth it!

[aloneinok_04]

I wish I was stronger, such a long  story my life, this battle, Im tired in so many ways.  

[donewitis]

Hi
Just saying,: "I don't know if I am strong enough to quit," is defeat. This is not easy but totally doable...so your sick for a few days...I'm sure you know the Thomas's Recipe..etc.. Of course you can do this. I can tell you are already dispondent..probably anxious. These pills are no long er working for you. I did this alone, with the support here..and prayer..others and my own. I accepted that "I would be ok not being ok for awhile." So can you. This IS 2/3 mental and 1/3 physical. You do not have to be controlled by pills..you take back the control of your life. Do you have a dr you can be honest with? That might be a solution or have you considered rehab? There are solutions..that's what you have to focus on. You are stronger than you think.