This pain is worse than the withdrawals.

[justme1119]

Why do I hurt so much.  I'm only 54.  The withdrawals were hard.  I'm a little anxious, but nothing I can't handle.  But the pain tonight after going back to work is bad.  My legs hurt so bad.  My neck hurts.  My head hurts.  My shoulders hurt.  My back hurts. I took two tylenol.  I put some heat rub on my legs and a heat pad on my neck and I'm going to take half an ambian.  I know I don't drink enough water, or anything for that matter.  Could that be causing my pain?  My left leg is swollen and I've called the surgeon for an appointment but my other body parts hurt too.  I hope it gets better.  One can will themselves through withdrawals because they know it will end.  What if the pain doesn't end?  Can I deal with it and live a happy life?  I'm so jealous of those people that say, I'm going to love life and be happy no matter what life throws me.  I'm such a baby.  What if I had cancer?  It helps to be able to come here and vent.  We had visitors tonight, friends that I love and haven't seen in 7 years.  My husband cooked and cleaned.  He had the day off.  I laughed and visited through the pain and now I'm in the bed and hurting so bad.  

[sandra5353]

Day 48 and in intense pain all over. I had it before the meds but not as bad. Wish now, I hadnt taken the meds cause it was tolerable then, now, I feel like breaking down and going back on the meds. I am living as a vegetable and cry all day. How can this be the rest of my life? I think how I may never take my grandkids to the movies again, go shopping with my daughters or just go to dinner with my husband. I am in sweat pants all day long, cause I have to keep lying down with a hot pad on my back every so many hours. I dont even bother putting on makeup, it just runs down my face everytime I cry. What's the use?

[lulu747]

I'm here....I get what you are saying about the pain.  I am suffering something awful today...cold damp and period pain...I've had two baths and a sauna and done a whole lot of deep breathing and a 7 km hike...
I can't take NSAIDS because of my Crohns-but find that tylenol arthritis twice a day helps with my joint and lower back pain...
Massage is great and I think you should do it as much as you can.  I can't handle the chiropractor myself...It's too intense.  But yoga really helps with my alignment, flexibility, and general peace of mind.  It's hard to be anxious when you're deep breathing and balanced on one leg(:

I know it's rough but you don't want to go backwards...You're doing great....I hope you find some relief, have a restful sleep, and a brighter day tomorrow....Lu

[justme1119]

Hey lu, I'm still here, still sober, still in pain.  Went to chiropractor Friday.  He says he thinks it's just fascia itis.  He did the ultrasound therapy, massage and heat, and told me to come back twice next week.  I'll have to leave work early and I hate to ask off.  I hate being seen as sickly.  But I'm going to do it.  I don't know what else to do.  I need help with this pain in my neck and shoulder. A few weeks ago I broke down and took some NSAIDS, but then I looked up why I'm not supposed to on some of the bariatric surgery sites, and I decided that I don't need that trouble (ulcers and bleeding in the stomach.)  I've been reading about people that relapse by taking one pill if they have it.  Honestly, I think if I had access to any, I would take them.  I know it may be hard for some people to understand, but in my life, if don't get them from the doctor and pharmacy, they are just not available to me.  My family knows that I have a weakness for them, so they are not going to tell me if they have them.  I think if I can find a way to deal with the pain I will be ok.  Just checking in.  Wondering how GA is doing too, if you're out there.

[justme1119]

Yep...I like the cold, but my body does not!  I live in TX, so it's not cold for long!

[lulu747]

Hey Just...glad to hear you had a better day.  Every day I remind myself it's about the little victories(:  I am having a heck of a time with the cold damp and my RA but have been doing a lot of heat therapy of my own.  Hang on to your hope....Lu

[justme1119]

Ok Marie, here's a little hope.  I had a rough night and a terrible day yesterday.  Today I pushed through the morning because I've had heat on me all night.  Around noon, I was wondering how I was going to get through the afternoon and I remembered I hadn't taken any tylenol today.  So I took two tylenol and two clonodine.  While I wasn't pain free, I made it through a committee meeting at 3:30, went to get my son from school, and I was able to cook for about 45 min. when I got home.  I'm hurting, but my knee is much better and my neck doesn't hurt so bad I feel the need for Norco tonight.  And at school I worked all day!  I sat very little, and I put together something for my class that my principal has been wanting me to do for two years.  I'm just saying...today was better, so there is hope!  I'm still going to go to chiropractor on Friday.  Looking forward to that!

[minn66]

Oh wow, I know what you mean. I am only 45 and have chronic pain in my neck due to compressed discs, bone spurs, and calcification. I stopped all pain meds almost 7 weeks ago. Some days are pretty bad. Sometimes I hate my body for betraying me so! I can't really offer much except to say that I understand and try to keep as active as I can and if I feel particularly bad I will lay down in a dark room flat on my back using my ergonomic pillow and take some Excedrine. A heating pad also helps. Hang in there. Lol, sometimes I wish I lived somewhere like Arizona where I wouldn't hurt so much. This cold damp weather is not helping!

[justme1119]

I don't mean to scare you. I think you should give yourself some time and try other things for sure.  Let's hang in there together.  We didn't get in the mess overnight.  

[GA_need_help]

Seriously,
I am getting closer and closer to being through with my taper.  I feel a great deal of pain bf taking my pills.Am I about  to die in pain?  I won't live in unbearable pain!  I'm panicked!

Marie

[justme1119]

The neck hurt before day one, actually.  It's been hurting for months, just not this bad.

[justme1119]

I've made an appt. with knee surgeon, the 17th.   Made an appt. with massage therapist, Friday.  Tried to call the chiropractor, he's off till Thursday.  Took a cane to work.   Almost comical.  I had thoughts of calling the pain doctor just now for more Norco.  I know Gnarly says it's rebound pain and it could be. I've think I've got a pinched nerve.  My neck has been hurting really bad since day one and I'm on day 33 I think.  My neck  gets better during the day occasionally, and the pain moves to my back.  My right shoulder hurts.  My knee is bearable today, but the neck pain radiates to my head and I've had photophobia like I get when I have migraines, which I'm happy to report that I have not had since I got off of the drugs.  Maybe the clonodine keeping them at bay.  If I can stand it, I'm going to go with the chiropractor and the massage therapist for now, but one day at a time.  If it's still hurting this bad at 90 days I may call "calfrope."  In other words, give in.

[texaslady68]

Just,

I am on Day 9 and I know what you mean about the pain.  I went shopping for a few hours with my kids yesterday and my back was KILLING me.  This is the reason I was on the pills I have some pretty bad back issues.  I took ibuprophen when I got home (seems to work better than tylenol) and did some stretches.  I felt some better.  Today is my first day back at work and I will be sitting at my desk all day so we will see how I feel when I leave.  I am going to get up and walk as much as I can.  We have a park outside and will go walk at lunch.

I drink alot of water all day.  Pretty much the only thing I drink.  Good luck and I hope it gets better.   Just know you are not the only one walking around hurting.  

[gnarly_1]

HI what your getting is rebound pain its from the lack of endorphind in your brain your use to putting them in with a pill now your brain has to make its own again this can take a wile the aches and pains will go away but you might have to live with them for 2 weeks to a month hang in there keep posting you are getting better it just dont seam like it today good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[lulu747]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much...It does make sense because you've been through a tough ordeal (detox) and the holidays...and now you're going back to work...Stress always increases my pain levels and my perception of them....I'm only 33 but some days I feel like a 90 year old woman.  Try to drink as much fluids as possible...Your body needs hydration to circulate properly and dehydration could very well be adding to your suffering.  Hold on to your hope and take time out for yourself and be gentle with yourself...I know how hard it is.  Wishing you a restful sleep....lu

[justme1119]

The only thing that is keeping me going right now is the fact that the pain moves around.  That gives me a little hope.  Does that make sense?  Sometimes it's in 4 or 5 places at once, but sometimes it's only 2 or 3.  Maybe we should switch to the pain forum, lol.  There is a lot of good info here.  Sometimes just knowing I can come here and tell people how much I hurt helps me.  Keep posting.  And let me know how things turn out for you.  

[GA_need_help]

Hi, I don't know what I am going to do either.  I know we aren't suppose to live in pain.  So, what do we do when the pain is bad, and it doesn't leave.  OK at first it  maybe rebound pain or hyperalgesia, but what if it stays and stays?
Your delima is mine also!

Marie