please help me

[unheard70]

I am a 37 yr old female. I am a single mother of a 13 yr old boy. My parents died (murder,suicide) when I was just 14. I have no extended family. My son's father is in a different state and has no contact with us at all. I couldn't even find him if I tried. My problem is that I have borederline personality disorder, I am bipolar, and I have lupus. I have prided myself on relying solely upon myself and I must say that I have done quite well for the most part. 9 years ago I made the worst mistake of my life by getting involved in a relationship with a man who owns a few well established businesses with a very well to do income. He got me into cocaine...BAD MOVE on my part...we were married 2 years later. We have been married for 7 years. I do cocaine every day of my life. He still lives with the mother of his kids whom he was never married to because he says his 21 year old daughter, who at 12, didn't get along with my, then 4 yr old son, will run away if he moves in with me..so he comes every morning and leaves cocaine at my bedside....he feeds me when I wake then gives me cocaine til he leaves at 7pm, then he leaves me a pile of cocaine to get through the night. I am in no physical condition to work, I can no longer care for myself and I have gone over the edge many times......I have LITERALLY BEGGED HIM....not to give me anymore cocaine....I have BEGGED to go to REHAB.....We have no medical insurance, so I have been dealing with my lupus and mental illnesses on my own.......I don't know what to do...If I was handed a miracle of being able to get medical attention and rehabilitation..I am faced with another dilemma...no one to care for my son while I recover....I do not want him in foster care....I refuse that as an option.....HELP ME PLEASE..............I have lost my independence, my confidence, my beauty, and my will to live...... ALL OF MY CRIES HAVE FALLEN UPON DEAF EARS............................

[liscamdave]

Ya see, this is what really  chapps my ***, why do some people come here and put their two cents into things and then not back it up. Now, this girl is on obvious, desperate need of serious help on many different levels. She knows she needs help and wants help or wouldn't have come here and asked for it. If one of us were told we needed to be locked up when we first came here, would you keep coming on and posting? I know that when I came here I was accepted, no questions asked. ANd I have made many friends over the last 8 months and if not for some of these people I wouldn't be where I am now. I don't see how hurting or scaring this woman more is going to help her. Yes, she needs to leave the guy, but we are not relationship counselors and yes, she needs to get professional help for her mental state, but we are not psychiatrists and she DEFINITELY needs professional help for her serious addiction, and although we are not N/A or addiction counselors, we are educated enough as a "COLLECTIVE GROUP", to friggin help this woman a little....A LITTLE.... if nothing at all.....I mean, my goodness. Has the demeanor of this forum changed so much that we can't look past all the bickering to help this woman.....

[liscamdave]

Shattered....lol....THANK YOU....


lmnop....Honey, not at all did I mean to come off mean to you. I totally understand what you meant and I agree to an extent....It is pathetic that you never know with this forum.....

xo, hope all is well...

xo

[eliminnopee]

   I understand... I just hate to see people anywhere getting on each other when it deviates from the goal of helping this person... I was just trying to put everything in perspective.

[Shattered]

Yes ! lock her up and throw away the key!...Better yet I need to diet so lock me up so I won't be able to over eat!!


Sounds ridiuclous doesn't it

[liscamdave]

Actually, to be honest, I too thought something was a little fishy about the story. I am not at all saying it is a lie, but it seemed odd to me that it was posted so many times. Maybe she really wanted to be heard (read) and answered, but maybe she didn't know how to work the forum. It can be a little confusing at first. But you are right, she didn't respond. But either way, we have to treat every post as being honest and real. We can't turn anyone away who is asking for help. So real or fake, I am going to try and help.

xo

[liscamdave]

I just think this woman is bad and in desperate need of a BOAT LOAD of help. And this is her reaching out for some sort of help. I'd hate to see her turn away because she is being told she may need to be locked up??? I mean, come on....

Hope you are good my dear!!!

xo, Lisa