please help me

[unheard70]

I am a 37 yr old female. I am a single mother of a 13 yr old boy. My parents died (murder,suicide) when I was just 14. I have no extended family. My son's father is in a different state and has no contact with us at all. I couldn't even find him if I tried. My problem is that I have borederline personality disorder, I am bipolar, and I have lupus. I have prided myself on relying solely upon myself and I must say that I have done quite well for the most part. 9 years ago I made the worst mistake of my life by getting involved in a relationship with a man who owns a few well established businesses with a very well to do income. He got me into cocaine...BAD MOVE on my part...we were married 2 years later. We have been married for 7 years. I do cocaine every day of my life. He still lives with the mother of his kids whom he was never married to because he says his 21 year old daughter, who at 12, didn't get along with my, then 4 yr old son, will run away if he moves in with me..so he comes every morning and leaves cocaine at my bedside....he feeds me when I wake then gives me cocaine til he leaves at 7pm, then he leaves me a pile of cocaine to get through the night. I am in no physical condition to work, I can no longer care for myself and I have gone over the edge many times......I have LITERALLY BEGGED HIM....not to give me anymore cocaine....I have BEGGED to go to REHAB.....We have no medical insurance, so I have been dealing with my lupus and mental illnesses on my own.......I don't know what to do...If I was handed a miracle of being able to get medical attention and rehabilitation..I am faced with another dilemma...no one to care for my son while I recover....I do not want him in foster care....I refuse that as an option.....HELP ME PLEASE..............I have lost my independence, my confidence, my beauty, and my will to live...... ALL OF MY CRIES HAVE FALLEN UPON DEAF EARS............................

[eliminnopee]

     I don't want to be out of line at all, but considering all angles I have to ask.  Has anyone considered that this story is at all fabricated and everyone's getting all pissy at each other for no real reason.  I have yet to see Unheard70 post a reply and that in itself seems a bit suspicious for someone who is so desperate that they post the same thing 7-8 times.  I do not in anyway mean to undermind the problems this person is having, just thought that maybe we should consider this before we eat each others lunch.

[NautyOne]

I am with you 100%  I'm  never afraid to answer a post.......this one is very disturbing to me ......but, i so agree with you.......

Nauty...........

[liscamdave]

So let me get this straight, I am the only one that thinks locking this girl up is not appropriate? This girl obviously is in desperate need of help, and locking her up is what is going to help her? And what will become of her son? She has deep issues. The mere fact that she thinks it is ok for her husband to live with another woman is proof enough that she is severely depressed. What kind of environmental could this little boy be living in. Yes, she needs professional help, but no, she doesn't need to be locked up. It seems she has no one to turn to or she would have already. I can't even begin to think how to help this woman. But it seems as though she isn't going to get the help she so desperately needs from us.

This is so crazy.

[NautyOne]

In the words of the Great MC Hammer.............."Can't touch this"  I think is was MC or tone loc?

nauty...............

[NautyOne]

some things just need be left to the professionals...........

[liscamdave]

So would you say that all addicts need to be in a "lock-down" facility in order to get help?