please help!!!

[stannab]

this is in the morning of day three.  I could make it but I must go to work and I am so messed up that I feel I can't get through a work day.  Therefore, I am going to use again so I can work. (yes, I know it sounds like an excuse).  I have decided that at this point I will have my dr. keep them at his office and give them to me day by day and wean off.  

I am oraying that this method will work for me,  Please any opinions or suggestions.....stannab

[stannab]

thans for all of your comments.  I asked and I received.  I know myself better than anyone kows me and therefore I know shat I must do for me.  Yes, maybe i try and fail a few times before I get there, but that seems to be the case with most of us.  I have weaned before -- on my own and was so successful that I thought I could start using again and quit just as easily.  Must be more addicted now because it''s more difficult.  I have made up my mind to quit using andtherefore I will.  It might take me more than one try but i will get there.
stanab

[ohmygodhowdidigethere]

You asked for people's opinion on what they thought you should do, people can only tell you from their own experience and what worked for them...from their opinion take what you need and see how it applies to you, just be honest with yourself is my advice, what is your true motivation...and no one can answer that question but you, i cant tell you its an excuse to take a pill, or that its a legitimate way to keep food on the table, only you know the answer to that question...be honest with yourself though...what is honestly motivating you to take that pill and i think then you will have the answer...

[Roxyslivewire]

do not give up..u can do it..however, u need to baby!!!  Keep it going!!

Be blessed

[Mty Girl]

Hang in there if you can.  Two days is a low number but it is a GREAT accomplishment!! I did it while working and raising two kids on my own.  It is pure hell and my dr did taper me.  Only by the week and guess what I took the whole weeks worth the first 2 days each week, so I was detoxing every week.  Finally I said enough..and I have to tell you 2 days is wonderful you're doing GREAT!!! Wake up tomorrow and see if you can do without just hour by hour.  Since you haven't been through it before you really don't realize how far you've actually come but again I say good for you with two days down..try for yourself not to go backwards to tapering.  This place saved me, so don't take offense there's so much love and understanding here and no judgement.  You're in my prayers whichever way you chose to do this!! Hang in there!!!

[NautyOne]

Then use your method, and I hope it works for you, but I must tell you that tapering is pretty brutal, and prolongs the misery.....yes, if you do reduce your dose your withdrawal at the end will not be as bad, but you will still be down for a week at least, and your taper will probabaly be pretty uncomfortable........reaching the end.  Doctors are usually for a pretty quick taper, so I wish you well.

keep posting and let us know how it goes.

luv,
Nauty............

[extrmeski]

You gotta do what you gotta do.  Honestly it's very difficult and you really need a week off if you are going to detox.. And even after that you have to battle the depression, lack of energy and all that goes with the mental side as your brain heals.
Your head is in the right place wanting to get off, you just have to find a way that works for you.

[worried878]

working and detoxing can be a huge challenge....3 days into it..i would choose to stay off the pills and call in sick from work cos u r so close..a couple of more days and u will be so much better..maybe even tomorrow...but u gotta do it in a way that works for u...and that is an ideal set up..ur doc tapering u down that u work for...almost too ideal....and it is kinda hard to taper now since ur pill intake is 0.....if this is ur plan follow it to a T...set a last day for urself and no more after that...the end of the show and narcs no more....good luck and u r trying so very hard..i can feel it in my bones when u post...u want this so badly and i think that is a huge chunk of this battle

[HelpinUtah]

I responded to your post on the social side.  

I understand about the work issue.  I had to work through it too. My boss told me if I missed any time from this I'd probably lose my job.  I think if this works for you great.  And, if your doctor is willing to do that, that's awesome!  I think you can do this and work at the same time, but it would really depend on the type of work you do.  For me, I'm a collections manager and a desk job for the most part.  So, it was probably easier for me.

Hang in there!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

[jollyman069]

i dont think they were being negative... ppl here and care they are telling u how they would do it... i for one think u have a good idea but dont put down the ppl trying to help they have ur best intrest at heart and they are concerned u do what u think u have to do... this is different for every one and the less critizm we give each other the better oof we all are.. good luck if u need to chat or vent just pm me i am on often....brian

[stannab]

I am grateful and I know you are trying to help me, but I find your coments to be somewhat on the negative.  I really do not need that right now.  I need tons of support and not critizism.  Yes, this is my illness and even though we may both share the same illness I must use my methods just as you needed to use yours.  stannab

[Clamity2]

Just don't lie to yourself.  I think you are making a big mistake. I told my Dr. NOT to ever give me another opiate unless I came in with a broken leg and then only for 2 or three days but I think I would rather take the pain because the pain of using was huge for me.

[dbgc]

this is also my third day off of pills. I hope you will not take any, give it 5 more days you will feel a little better. the first time i quit for four weeks i had to go to work and put in vinyl fence by myself for 11 to 12 hrs a day and in those twoo weeks i only got 7 to 8 hrs of sleep. i made it and it was not fun and i was miserable but it is worth it ***** that i am doing this all over again. ct was the only way for me to quit. hope you can do this, it is so worth it even though it doesnt feel like it now.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

How you do it doesnt matter a whole lot. Its great that you have a Doc that will assist you. With him in the loop and you being honest with him it should just work out nicely ............

[Cupp78]

I can't tell you how to live your life, but it never works that way.  One pill is too many and 1000 never enough.  You have made it a LONG way to get through the first 2 days.  Why have to go through that again.  Just grit your teeth.  This day will not last forever....you can do it....many have!!!  Be strong and don't give in to the pills!

From one addict to another...you shouldn't take that pill.  It isn't worth it!!!

[jollyman069]

as long as ur dr goes along with it sounds like a great ideaq i think, cause they will make sure u only get the dose u are suppost too...good luck