guilty

[freefallingsj]

I was tappering off just fine, controlling my intake and not taking more then I got the refill and yestuday I took a few more than the 3 I was down to.  It felt good for a bit then I felt phsically awful.  I am a bit tired this moringing but the guilt is getting to me.  I think I am just going to get a weekly pill box and leave the rest at my mom's house refilling at the end of the week.  I had been so good on control.  I am going to go down to 2 1/2 pills next week and see how that goes.  Two weeks on each dose is what I have been doing, slow and steady wins the race sort of thing.  I come here every day, I just need to check in more often I think and participate more.  Thanks to everyone for being here for each other.

[SophieShine]

don't beat yourself up sweetie.
I'm tapering for 9 months now, It's a bumpy road.
Your idea to give your pills to your mom and have a refill is GREAT.
What you just had is a set back. get yourself together and start fresh. xxx

[worried878]

tapering is hard..it is a good idea to have somone hold them...but often best to pick up daily instead of weekly from the person cos having a weeks worth of pills can be hard when tapering...sometimes people just jump and get it over with as the guilt and "feeling like a loser" syndrome that comes along with tapering can be worse for some than CT..some taper well///i think those r usually people who r only physically dependent tho....or who r very disciplined and have a cg i the home who holds them..i was a horrible taperer...pick urself up..wipe urself off..and get back on track...when is ur QUIT day?

[gizzy32]

Tapering can be so difficult for some and I don't think I could do it myself. I think leaving the rest at your mom's is a great idea. Guilt is a horrible feeling, but don't beat yourself up, you have done well on this taper so far, but most of us are never in control, when we think that it can be trouble. You don't want to mess this all up at this point so do what you need to stick to this taper. Keep at it and keep posting.