I have been on methadone and percocet, very low dose, like 20 mg a day on the methadone and 10 mg a day on the percocet, but it has been probably 15 years that I have been taking this for chronic headaches. I used to be hopeful that I could get off someday but then after my husband died, and the major depression set it, it was just hard. My question is this, after going through the horrendous detox that has to occur to get off, after all that is over, can you really feel happy again, and do actually feel "better" than you did on the meds? I am trying to figure out if there is really a negative to me being on the drugs, I never feel a high, never, but they may make me feel better than I would off the meds. I do know that I dread going to the doctor every month, I mean really dread it, it makes me nervous and my blood pressure goes up, am always afraid he will stop giving them to me, and I have been through withdrawal twice, I don't think I could do it again. So a big positive would be the fact that I would not have to go see him every month. I suppose I have a lack of feeling in control of my life as it is now, my self-esteem is so low, I lost my job and lost my home, am living with my mother. I want to get my life back, do you think it is important to get off the drugs to do this?
Thank you for any help you can give me.
Love, Cindy