relapsed and starting over go figure!!!

[Mom309]

Well I went about 40 days of no vicodin and I relapsed and now I am out and I am going to do this all over again.....except this time i was only taking roughly 4 a day as oppose to 15 a day last time I withdrawed, so i am hoping that it i a little easier this time on withdraws, we shall see because today is day 1........everyone wish me luck and I am so damn stupid for doing this to myself again!! Our first vacation is in 15 days  to  the ocean and i hope I will be way better by then what are your thoughts on this?

[Mom309]

Thanks so much for your kind words of wisdom and i hope this helps others who are relapsing and getting ready to spiral out of control as I was getting ready to......

[jstntime]

Way to go Mom!!!!

You are wise to recognze that your "just a couple of pills" was again becoming a daily habit.  It was very smart of you to stop before the dreaded wd became what they were for you the first time around.

The fact you slept all night is a pretty good indication you have nipped this before it once again got out of hand.

Very happy for you!!!  Perhas some reading now will see themselves in your post and stop their use too before they repeat their self-imposed agony!!!!

Great job!!!!!!!

bob

[Mom309]

Well here is an update today is day 3 and I feel good and actually slept through the entire night!!!!!  and I am happy that my legs did not ache. Also I can already feel the rewards rolling in my husband text me yesterday and said "guess what we are all getting bonuses next month"   and also I called a salon out of the blue and found my old hair stylist that had disappeared for like 1 years!! So I made an appt with him for next week and only 12 days left until vacation!!!!!  Thanks for the support everyone

[gnarly_1]

HI ...so sorry to here your going threw this again...but it dosent sound as bad as the first time...you will probably experience some minor physical withdrawals but it shouldn't be to bad the part that gets to most of us is the mental side of this...thats why we recommend aftercare so strongly you probably should get involved since you relapsed its what keeps me from going there without it I would have crashed and burned many times over
addiction doesent just go away on its own...aftercare is the treatment that allows us to live in recovery it will make a big difference for you ....its no fun having to repeate this over and over....most people on here with any significant clean time use one form of aftercare or another....have a great time at the beach good luck and God bless....Gnarly      

[Mom309]

thanks I know I keep telling myself only 13 more days...lol   but last time me and my husband quit on the same day he was just as bad on them as I was and well he knew I had taken them a couple times as he had to but had no idea I was taking them on a daily basis, and once again I felt like I was acclompishing so much while i was on them but my house was more dirtier then ever, so this is day 2 and i have my house back together again and I am feeling ok, my legs are starting to ache now so i will take some motrin for that.  I am just glad I seen the warning sign before it got out of control again and was able to quit cold turkey again, last time it was 9 days of living hell....thanks everyone!!

[pattifan]

Way to go Mom!

Just keep thinking of Myrtle beach!

You'll get there.

Take care

[Mom309]

i know I can I am actually feeling pretty good today I have started some laundry and etc. around the house and things are ok, but I think it is not that bad this time because I was only taking a few a day as oppose to like 14-17 a day as I was before.......I was having alot of pain in my knees and said I would just take a couple here and there if needed and it kind of turned into a daily thing these past couple weeks and I noticed the trend so i STOPPED asap and will never do that again I will just deal with the pain

[Cantdothisanymore]

I am so sorry to hear this. You were a big help to me and Sad1258 - you were about 10 days ahead of me when I stopped. I am at day 66.  You can do this! Dont give up. I made it this far - so can you.

[shiningstar500]

Good luck to you and stay strong!! Have a great vacation!

[Mom309]

Lol wow I so did not see that whoops, and I sure hope it is sorted by now gesh....lol  

[pattifan]

Mom,

Also don't worry about the rectal bleed post you just answered. It's from 2008 so I'm sure it's sorted!

Good luck now, and take care

[Mom309]

Thanks i think it will be easier this  time also because I have not really taken them every day and only a few a day....i have started the b-12 back up and also drinking my coffee all day again....lol but it will be a little easier now because i do not work so i can have a little rest with the withdraws now......I think right now it is the mental w/d but i am sure when I try to go to sleep tonight the physical wd's will kick in....yea we are headed to myrtle beach for 7 nights and leaving on labor day!! everyone stick with me yet again through this hell as I really need it right now and pray I will feel better for our first family vacation to the ocean....

[pattifan]

Hi Mom,

I'm sure that it will be easier for you this time around from the lower dose.

List members can give you all sorts of helpful tips to reduce the withdrawal syndrome, but you may already know these from last time. Just ask if you have any queries.

I think personally that the holiday is a great idea. You should be feeling so much better by then, and although getting clean is a great enough reward as it is, you'll deserve and enjoy some chill out time.

I think it'll do you good.

In the meantime the list members will give you all the support you could want.

Good luck.