very tired on day 21

[Totsie59]

I just thought I was 100 percent..After long weekend with grands, I am so tired. I am having to make myself move. I think I over done it. Grocery store, Walmart, out to eat, playing outside, had baby grand (10 months) all day yesterday with 3 other older grands. I wagged her around or chased her all afternoon. My back is killing me.Now my house is a mess and I dont want to move. I have felt so GREAT..No energy left..

[kim715]

Sweet dreams Totsie,enjoy that bath girl........Kim

[dominosarah]

Well let this other "80" yr old complain too!!!!  LOL

Hey how great is it to have those babies now that grandma is clean!!!!!!  I am proud of you!!!  Now get that bath going, get the music on and lets kick it old school!!!!!!!!!!     sara

[Totsie59]

Thanks to all of you for helping me thru this tough night..My bath is running and its calling my name..Thanks for all the pep talks..Good Night  :)

[Totsie59]

I'll by 50 in May, my boys are 28 & 31. I call it retiring at 40, when my 1st grand was 1, to help take care of him. I to have a deep appreciation for stay at home moms. My nest is empty, but I have alot of visitors. I thank you for helping me thru a lousy night. Feeling about 80 tonight..Oh, i hear my hot bath calling my name.LOL Thank you again.

[kim715]

I know exactly what you're saying about having w/ds from your grandson.I went through the same feelings with the 2 oldest granddaughters.My stepdaughter also battled a drug addiction so my husband and I literally raised them for over a year.I quit my job and became a stay at home grandma,which was really different for me because I was always a working mom.My children are now 23,21,and 18.I have a new appreciation for stay at home moms and for woman having children over 40,God bless them,I couldn't do it.LOL I love them all to pieces but they certainly make me feel like I'm 40 going on 80 some days.LOL You are absolutely right we're alive and we're clean and there is nothing that makes you feel more alive then spending time with the grandbabies.They're just the best......Kim

[Totsie59]

DITTO! When I flushed my little babies. It was like "Good for Me'! I think I was dancing until the next day when I didn't have the strength to go pee. In making all my quiting plans I forgot about adult diapers.LOL  Yes, I was tired or being tired, and sick of being sick. The thrill was gone. I was just needing more and more (for energy) to get going and keep going..those wds are my punishment for having my affair with hydro..taking them wasn't worth going thru that..I am done...just makes me sick to even think about it. I am so ready to take my life back..its mine!

[Totsie59]

They are truly a blessing. They can also make us feel our age.LOL We had my first grandson more than his mom until he was 6. My son, his dad had severe drug problems. It was so hard when she remarried and kept him home all at once. We had wds from him.LOL I don't know how you do it having one all the time. I guess we are stronger than we think when push comes to shove. I have 2 grands that live next door (51/2 & 10 months) I have them alot during dry seasons because their Dad (my son) pick them up from daycare and if he gets called out, I am the one that keeps them..sometimes it tiring because the 51/2yr old wants ALL of my attention. I guess I am just tired and needing to vent about being tired.LOL Maybe just feeling my age. Hey thats ok, I am alive and clean..Thanks.

[worried878]

I was just talking with another member on the importance of setting a quitting date..it makes it so much more real...those who refuse to set one often do not make it....it shows u r serious and have a time that this way of life is over..and then sticking to it...life is to short to keep this stuff up any longer than we have to....in a way..quitting can be exciting. for many...coming to the realization that u r ready to be done..tired of being tired...worryimg about pills/how many do i have left?  how many shouold i take today so they will last?    a big relief comes off our shoulders and we are free..the pills no longer control us...it is really sumpin to be excited about! and sumpin to be proud about...not everyone quits...they go on and on in this wasted life..never feeling th joy we can feel when the wind blows or a flower is in bloom..little things i feel now that make me happy...and accepting that there will be gloomy days just like evryone else has on this earth...there is nothing like feeling the freedom that comes with letting thos pills go/they have been controlling us for way too long..i think flushing my left overs as one of the best and therapuedic things i have ever done,,,,letting those puppies swirl down the toilet..cos i had taken contro back..away from those little tiny monsters!

[kim715]

I've got a little over a year clean and I'm 40 and a grandma and just reading your post made me tired.LOL  My husband and I were raising his daughters 2 little girls for a little over a year,they were 2 and 4 at the time,now they're 3 and 5 and I have a granddaughter who is now 20 months old that lives with me.Grandchildren are truly a blessing from above but boy oh boy they can sure tire you out.Don't be so hard on yourself.Girl,if you did all that on week 3,you're my new hero.LOL Leave that mess until morning.Go take yourself a nice hot bath and relax,you've earned it.All the best...Kim

[Totsie59]

I really am one of the lucky ones. I no longer work, so I got to just stay home during the wds. I told family that I had the flu.except hubby, I came clean to him over the phone..He was out of town. I think I am just having a pity party for 1. I do feel better now, that I come here and got to talk..:) I am usually a very healthy eater ( severe acid reflux and ulcers) but this weekend I slipped, I ate out, drank dr. pepper, and ate junk food. I think that may have had something to do with my feeling so yucky.  It wasn't quite a whole yr that I was in love with my pills. Woke up one day and thought what the H*** am I doing. Set a quitting date. And the rest is history. My thanks to all the heros at this site that have helped me thru this. Thank You.

[worried878]

sounds like u had a great..but busy day...most people would be tired..and we are most people..just dont have the pick me upper anymore..we were cheating all this time and now we have to deal with tired days, doomer days, gloomy days..just like the rest of the world..we cant take a pill and make them go away any longer cos we r clean..and that is a good thing!  also..fatigue can set in for many x-users/ weeks after quitting..it hit me like a bomb...I felt so good for 2 weeks or so after detox/excited about my new self without drugs/the excitement wore away and I melted into my couch..working was all i could do for a while and i felt like a big fat boring loser....had to do a rocket shot to get mu butt out of the door each am..it was toughenvied those who did not work during this time...i read up on the thomas recipe and upped my doses of the aminos/especially tyrosine and phenylalanine/to the recommended dose of 2-3000 mgs a day..and i bumped up my workouts/no matter how tired i was i went to the gym...this is a critical time to be going to meetings as this fatigue/depression is the cause of most relapses..often depression accompanies this fatigue..meetings almost daily is what i did until this passed...hopefully for u this will pass soon..for me it was close to 3 months..but i had used for 3-4 years....80-100 mgs of hydro a day..the fatigue was hard on me as i am a goer..a doer..do not like to sit around all the time in front of the television..probably why i loved those puppies cos in the beginning they made me have more energy/i could do even more of the things i loved to do/at the end they suffocated me and actually took my nrg away from me..made me depressed and i began isolating..at home//just me and my pills/and they r nothing like hanging out with ur best friends...they r in fact ur worst enemy and they turn on u in the end

good luck to u....stay strong and do what u need to do to keep moving forward

[Totsie59]

Thanks that makes me feel much better. Like I said "just a little pity party" I feel better now. Just talking helps soooo much. The only one outside this site that knows about my little pill problem is my hubby. He is out of town. I can be so down, come here and find out real fast that I am one of the lucky ones. I better feel better tomorrow, I have an eye dr appt. at 9am and his office is 1 hr away from my home..Don't want to go over there with my eye out of focus.LOL No telling what kinda of glasses I could come out with.LOL  And Congrats to you on 34, I am so ready for the 1 month..Again thank you.

[Totsie59]

Hey, my friend had her first grand the  same yr she had her baby..They were both boys and they are like brothers. It helped she son alot, because it would have been like he was the only child. I had my first grand at 39 and I had him so much (due to sons drug problems) that alot of people in our small town thought he was mine. He is like one of ours, he stays with us so much. My sister has 2 boys that are nearly 10 yrs apart. Thank you, nice to meet you to Ella. I hope our tomorrows just keep getting better and better.

[swandive222]

hey totsie!!  it is totally normal to feel tired during this time frame of w/d!!  i was the same way!!  feeling great at 2 1/2 almost 3 weeks then had one bad day the day before my 3 week mark that i was soooo fatigued and tired and just laid around all day!!  the next day i woke up though and felt amazing!!  and have not been fatigued since then!!  my turning point was the three week mark.  i started feeling "normal" again after 3 weeks!!  been going strong since then!!  am currently 34 days clean!!  i am sure you will wake up tomorrow and feel great again!! :)

and yep taking care of little ones will do it to you all the time as i am sure you know!!  esp. when you are freshly clean ;)  i babysit my little niece 3-4 times a week and she knocks me on my butt at the end of the day!!!

jess :)

[Ella789]

Wow, 43,!   and my friends were asking me if I was sure I knew what I was doing at age 36 ha!  Your friend must have been storing-up energy for a few years to have a baby at 43.  I told my friends that God knew what He was putting me through even if I didn't!  

  I have 3 boys, one 37, another 23 and the youngest is 20.  My oldest says he grew up alone, it's hard to explain female probs. to a kid tho. :(

  Nice to meet you Totsie !!!!!!!!     Yeah, I'm hopeing for better and better days ahead for all of us.

Hugs
Ella

[Totsie59]

Love the name Ella! Thank god, I had my boys young. I have a friend that had a baby at 43. There is no way I could do that now. Hey, LOL I do believe it is a age thing, maybe not just wds hanging on. When I come here and whine or just ask for help I feel so much better. I talk to people that can relate. Thank you. (oh, that age thing!!!!)LOL

[Ella789]

I think anyone would be tired after a weekend of babysitting, it's tough running after these little fella's,  that's why God let us have babies when we were younger ( although I was 36 when my youngest child was born.) Yeah, but he is a blessing to me!!  Now, I won't say anymore abt. the age thing :) might incriminate myself!

  I did'nt have kids this weekend but I have still whinned and was %itchy!

Ella

[Totsie59]

Thanks! My son is a forrest ranger, he has fought fires all weekend.(He lives next door). He just called worried about his 4 baby chickens. He did not put them back in the little house and turn their heat light on..So I got my tired self up to put them up and turn light on. I just thought about him, fighting wild fires all weekend, putting his life on the line (he has 2 babies 5 & 10 months). I thought what is wrong with me, crying about being tired. I checked on them chicks and made sure they had water and food. Called my son and told him everything is okay and that I love him. I also asked him how he was feeling..My problem is my fault. I need to get over my little pity party..Suck it up..I'm on day 21-3 weeks and I am so proud of that. I guess night time and being alone just really is getting to me..This site is my place to talk to folks that know where I am at and understand. 1 day of feeling tired (after getting over wds) and I am ready for a pity party for 1. I think I am gonna just get myself up, take a long hot bubble bath and relax...Thanks again..

[strong_woman]

im going to have to say congratulations!!!!!!!!!!so what if youre too tired to clean today....let it go....there was probably a time when you thought you wouldnt see that day so take it easy on yourself