scared just started methadone

[melodie79]

I just started the methadone program in london ontario.  I am addicted to oxycottin I tryed many times to stop but was unable. It took me 2 years to get the courage to go register for the methadone clinic,, know that I have I am not sure if I made the right choice.  I am the mother of an 8 year old and for the past 6 years I have been sick,   she deserves so much better then a mom who is always sick.  I want to get off all drugs and I think I am just switching to another addiction.  I took my first dose of methadone this morning 15mg I heard that low but it doesnt mean much to me considering I dont know alot about methadone.  I use to take 40 mg of oxys in morning and 40mg of oxys at night it started 7 years ago after surgery, at the time I never knew how addictive they were or I would of never started.  I also feel the same now after reshearching methadone online some people describe it as a ball and chain (scarry) I dont want to have a worse addiction then now.  When I seen the doctor this morning at the methadone clinic he told me you can go as high as you like as long as your comfortable and also told me he would rather I stay on it for life, this I didnt understand.  He said methadone is just like dieabitics who need to take insulin, and that if I needed it for life it was okay. I dont get that.  and he also said he would raise me 2 a week 5mg time. what does this all mean?? and why would a doctor encourage you to stay on long term (life if I want).  I am just scared (******** really) any advice people??? thanks in advance melodie

[msShannon]

i go the methadone clinic too. Did he say its "ok" to be on it for life??? Or he wants you to be on it for that long?  Iknow that it is safe to be on it for as long as you want, and if its life then you will have a life with out opiates, witch i think is better than not if thats the goal.  
I was told that two years is a good length of time to get stable on methadone and have a better life with out opiates. i have noticed that i would be tired in the afternoon but nothing i couldnt handle.  If you are nodding off then your dose is tooo high. i hope i helped a little let me know how things go. good luck

[gizzy32]

I just wanted to ask that when you stopped did you have any help at all? Sorry if my words came out wrong, but there may be a better solution to this for you. We are here to listen.

[gizzy32]

advice yes, although i never used methadone from what i have read here it is one of THE worst to come off of and for an 80 mg oxy habit to use methadone is so not worth it. Since i don't know much about it, maybe i shouldn't say, but i agree with avis and get off that **** now.

[gizzy32]

I don't understand this?

[avisg]

You were taking 80 mg of oxy a day ????????If you stay on methadone for any length of time you are going to be it much bigger of a mess then you started with .I would strongly suggest you do a quick taper off and be done with it .