So here I am again. I really really do appreciate all of you giving me support. Flushing those pills last night SUCKED, made me feel .. sick to my belly. Somehow I slept again. I know this gets worse, but I'm trying to not focus on that and take it one thing at a time like all of you have said. I have made some plans for this weekend to hopefully keep my mind off of things. My husband is taking my son tonight, and going to his moms to visit and spend the night.... He's giving me a break. Then, tomorrow I have a day of swimming planned.... I'm sure I'll be fine. Spending time with my family is always uplifting. Even though NO ONE... but me.. and my mother knows that my problem still exsist... spending time with family helps me to not think about it.
Right now... it's 12:30ish.. fast heartbeat.... I keep feeling like I need to go to the bathroom... but it just aint working yet.... When it rains it pours right? lol . I'll keep you all posted.
Thank you all again. I've met some really great people who sound so much like myself, and they have made it, so its reassuring.