so i just realized

[kellygirll]

today is 21 days woo hoo i can't believe i made it thru the weekend i have a new plan for saturdays in-between shifts i have to either go home or go to my sons 2 towns over i can't stay in new haven idle with nothing to do it WILL get me in trouble THAT I KNOW now and thats the last thing i want i went to my meeting yesterday and wanted to share so bad i couldn't i don't know i don't like talking to a bunch of people i really thought i would but as i was sitting there saying put your hand up kelly i felt this choking in my throat and my heart was pounding then when i thought i could they called a brake and i had to be back to work so i had to leave then grrrr I'm going to my aa meeting tomorrow maybe i will get up the nerve I'm not like totally scared sheet less i know i can do it i think I'm worried if its now the "topic" or ya know i don't know all the rules with NA or AA yet and i don't want to look like an azz I'm really enjoying the meetings to i go to both I'm on the hunt for a sponsor i was going to wait till i felt drawn to someone but i don't think its a good thing to wait I'm thinking of asking this lady at my wed na meeting it she says no i will feel really stupid and won't know who else to ask do people say no a lot?

[gnarly_1]

Hi Kelly   well your going to meetings thats great  every body has the ''hebe gebes'' about sharing it is ok you will feel relived when you finely do share just remember everybody has a first time no one will judge you there is no wrong way to do it   this will really help you in the long run I ow my life to N/A and do 4 meetings a week so step out of your comfort zone and share you wont regret it..........Gnarly

[luvdolphins58]

Hey Kelly girl. U can do it. U r tough cookie. With God all things r possible. U can always text or pm me anytime. Praying for u girl.

[meegWpaw]

hey Kelly congrats on 3 weeks honey!  open your mouth and holla ... at the meetings.  you know what you want to say!!!  if I can do it, so can you!  <3

[keith600]

Awesome just remember there are no rules in N.A. We were all scared to share then we realized that our story has been told thousands of times. I"ve never heard a OMG after someone has shared but I"ve heard plenty of yep, yep, yep I can relate.

[jifmoc]

Hey congrats on your time and I just want to add that I share every single time and every single time I am so nervous. I actually say in my share sometimes "I'm so f****ckin scared to share this... Usually it gets laughs, which as you know are part of the weird "fun" of meetings.

Point is if you wait until you are NOT scared, you'll never share. Just know that is part of "public speaking" and do it. You've never thought "what an idiot" about anyone else's share, right? Use that self-esteem, girl!

[Amandag78]

Hey there Kelly, congratulations on 3 weeks!!!
Im so badly preying for you to stay off those pills.
You really do deserve your own happiness.
Your a fantastic friend and i just want to see you stay clean.
Well done girl, much love to you xoxo

[Sonrissa]

Hey Kelly, Definately speak up. I think you will feel great once you do. As far as a sponsor, you can get one temporarily, until you find the perfect match for you. Sometimes that can take some time. But in the meantime you could use the support and attention.  Good luck, be sure to let us know how it goes. Take care!

[kellygirll]

ok im glad to hear that I'm allowed to say what ever i want and go off topic cuz now i will share tomorrow I've been going to meetings for 3 weeks now probably about 15 of them so far so I'm doing good ill let you know how it goes

[VICourageous]

I agree with IBK..I would like to add that you must remember that this is your Recovery..You just say whatever is on your mind. YOU do not have to talk about that specific subject that they just read or brought up to talk about..Tell them Anything..Just like you do on here. Speak out and let it Rip..You will find members coming up to you and be willing to help you out in any way they can..They do not know how you feel unless you TALK about it..There are NO RULES on what YOU want to say! It is going to be OK! Do it for YOU and YOU only by saying what it is that YOU want to say!! You never know, there could be someone right there that will really get something out of what you have said.
Please do not worry about the right thing or the wrong thing to say..There is NO right or wrong..What works for You is what it is all about..NOT what someone tells you how it is Suppose to work. It is up to you to keep working it because it does work if you work it..May you find the strength & courage to speak your mind and not care what others think..Heck! We are all in this Together. Kelly, Do Not think you have to speak a certain way because of some so-called-rules..There are No Bosses only Service work.
I do wish you the Best and get out there and let it out!
Bless

[IBKleen]

You have to open up your mouth and talk honey. You WILL NOT look or sound stupid. We all started somewhere. Hell, the first three months I was in the fellowship I went to two meetings a day and sat in the back with my arms folded. I was in a small bo-dunk town and I was thinking how these drunks and drug addicts could help me. That narrow minded thinking of mine almost cost me my sobriety. As I said to you yesterday, it is not enough to just attend meetings. You need to participate. As that lady if she will sponsor you temporarily. Unless she has too many sponsees already she will surely say yes. And get phone numbers from the ladies in the rooms. Use them next time you think of using. My sponsor used to tell me...Don't say in your own head ..you are in bad company.