I can't do it too weak..............

[Beth105]

I feel horrible guys I gave in............
What next, I have no help or support except for here.

[addict3]

Beth,
You can do this, if I can anybody can, I don't recall how much you were taking but I think I read 6 for 6 Mo.? Personally I was taking 10-12... #10's of hydro per day and quit cold turkey, I was also drinking more than a gallon of burbon per week up until 7 years ago.
Have you read the Thomas reciepe? It is on the lower right hand side of this page toward the bottom. There is also an amino acid protocol that you might find helpful, (someone pls. chime in on AD with amino acids), there might be a conflict there.
If you REALLY want to stop taking these pills you are going to have to buckle down,fight with all your heart and HATE what they are doing to you.

This is not easy, but many here have done it and you can also. You just cant go back and forth, stop and take no more!
Get stocked up on some soft foods and force yourself to eat if you have to, walk exercise as you can and this time next week you WILL be a different person.
If I can help feel free to PM me, I am not always on, but am almost daily, plus there are a lot here smarter than me to help you.
Good luck!........Keep posting ..It really helps!!!

[TrayCee]

You have a PM

[troubleinohio]

i dont know your entire situation,  i missed a lot of posts lately aruond here..but..you definitely  have to get really mad at your addiction for controlling your life and you have to FIGHT. I remember one of the numerous times that i was in full blown WD, in total agony- both physical pain and a mental mess..... i almost went and got more pills. I drove past the guys house where i knew i could get some at. I parked down the road from his house and just started crying and shaking and was so upset. I was shaking all over and had to really get tough on myself. I made myself think of my two little boys sitting back at home and what a pathetic mother i was- going out to try and get more drugs just because i felt so crappy without the pills. it was very hard but i made myself drive back past his house and keep on going and went back home to my kids and never got the pills. It was one of the hardest things Ive done through out this entire addiction hell but i did it. and you can too. Its not easy as you well know, but it can be done. Keep us posted, and get rid of the rest of your stash, btw!  

[Dezdon]

"Life's a do-over"    Get on it!

peace,
-Dez

[scared113]

3 hours is not alot. just doule it next time. then double that, then go into counting your days.....

[scaredmommie]

i know how you feel i had a bad addiction and i tried cold turkey it only lasted 6 hours with me then i tried tapering that didnt work so now im on a low dose suboxone treatment, and for me 3rd time was a charm, some times people cant do it with will power alone, a addiction is more powerful then you think, so there is nuttin wrong with needing a drs help, and you really need to get rid of the pills. what i did was the day before my drs appt to start sub i flused a 120 percs, if i didnt do that i would of kept taking them and you have to be in wds to start sub, so when i woke up the next morning i had no choice but to go to the dr and start, and getting clean is the best thing i ever did. just remember it dont matter how you go about getting clean the main point is getting clean.

[Beth105]

Thanks so much, you all are very encouraging.
I will try again, I will do it.
Thanks again!
I'm really feeling bad today....

[avisg]

Beth
It's not easy but it very doable your pain will seem terrible at first your body wants its fix .If you are going to quit, keeping drugs in the house is not really an option .I suffer from chronic pain on the third I will be clean for a year .Sooner or later your doctor will stop giving you pain meds trust me its better to do this on your own before that happens

[K Todd]

I drug were never my true addiction, it was alcoholism. However, through out all the detoxes I got hooked on the detox meds.

Then after that, dental work came and I took hydo's on and off. Then knee pain started comiing in...that was almost a 2 year process.

I have quit and fell numerous time.

I am a single man (now), renting a room. You know what makes the biggest difference in the world? Is having an idea on how powerful this addicition is, and it's withdrawls, and having you mind set, and your motive has to be set it the right direction..just as newgirl was saying.

Today I am on day 8 from 18-20 hydros, and I have never gone this long and I am dancing with Joy this morning.

We have to go through 3-4 days of hell (not scaring you, just telling you the truth) ...so that you will know, you have to go through the toughest time of your life, to get thru the otherside. Dont forget, to pray and ask God for His help either, He is always here for us, if we are willing.

Your not alone, and your not the only single one around...that has gone through this.

You can do this, just dont beat yourself up...and pick yourself up and realize how powerful this drug addiction has a contol over you life, and you can not get your life back unless you make up your mind, and smash those pills with all your heart!

God Bless, and were here for you,
Love,
Todd

[Soon2BMrsTurner]

your going to really have to try and three hours isnt any time at all . You have to want this more than anything and if you truly want off you cant keep the pills.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

There are a lot of clean people here that will gladly help you.....but it is not easy. I have to say that three hours isnt much of an effort. People here will be brutally honest with you. I dumped a 250-450mg hydro addiction that lasted a period of years. Didnt happen the first try and it wasnt easy. But I got it done. Check out the right hand side of page. Under health discussions. Read the Amino Acid Protocols and also the Thomas Recipe. They may help some. But do take the amino's and supp's as recommended - they replace what we lost while using. But it all starts with you. I dropped a habit that I began during Vietnam days ......... you can do it too .........

[Beth105]

Thank you, how long have u been free from addiction?

[Beth105]

thanks so much I will keep in touch.
I may need to get help from a dr.
Do u think this would help me?

[TrayCee]

This will probably be the hardest thing you ever have to put yourself through.  But it can be done!

Good Luck!

[gizzy32]

hi again, i posted to you not long ago about getting rid of the pills in your house. I agree with TrayCee, you have to take this seriously, 3 hours and already used. can u get rid of those pills, we are here for you, but you are going to have to fight this harder.

[Beth105]

The pain (from my injury, not wd's) is so bad.
I was able to make it through the mornring, but I did not throw the pills I have away.

[Beth105]

It is the first time, I've never felt so dependent on something before.
I was able to quit smoking, and I thought this would be as easy as that was but it's not!

[newgirl2708]

everyone on here has 'been there' i don't know of even one member who has not relapsed. try again. get after care-meetings or counciling. you are not alone. you feel bad, that maybe enough..what's next is up to you. you just need to know, you're not alone and everyone is nodding there heads, yep, been there done that.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try again,
Good Luck,
Newgirl

[TrayCee]

wait....you only made it 3 hours??

If you dont take this VERY seriously, you wont make

[ochooked]

"If at first you don't succeed, try, try again."  Most of the people on this site can relate and have been exactly where you are.   You can beat yourself up -- (no one here will) or you can get up and go again.   Keep posting - -- All the best.

[TrayCee]

Is this the first time youve tried?