still scared but not alone

[jusmejen]

Hello to everyone out there. As some of you know i will be flushing EVERY REMAINING PILL in three days. I will take my last pill thurday night. Excited but so scared. I have been praying so much, and i know that God is truly helping me. I have started a heavy duty vitamin regimen and hope it will make a difference, if it doesnt, oh well i will still make it through. I am prepared mentally for all this withdrawl throw my way, and will conquer all. To everyone that is comsidering withdrawl know that you are not alone and if i cqn do this anyone can. I have no will power! But i also know that it is time for this girl to reclaim her life, it has bewn ten years of hell, and i have had enough. Time to be a better Christian, mom,  wife, and person. I am sooooo ready to close this chapter of my life.
Have a great everyone.

[jusmejen]

Thank you for clarifying, i didnt think it was, and was suprized to hear that. Haha the thing i want is to substitute one opiate with another. I JUST WANT A CHEMICAL FREE AND CLEAN BODY! Thanks again for your support and way to go on your sobrity. I wish i was where you are!
Jenn

[overopiates]

Immodium isnt an opiate.The best way I can explain it is it has the same binders that opiates do to stop u up so to speak.Basically its like an opiate but no matter how much u take it wont get u high.U wont get dependant on it(as I said take it generously but only if/when u need it&shouldnt take it more than a few days n a row so ur body can get back to doing things on its own).Thats the last thing u need to worry about.I totally understand being panicked about  not having ur meds even if u arent gonna take em when ur taping or especially n addiction its a comfort thing.U seem to be doing great.I have a wondefully supportive husband as well and he has been vital to my sobriety.Oddly I feel like having him has brought us together even more.

[jusmejen]

Yes i have tapered somewhat but probably not enough to make a big difference, if any at all. I did pick up immodium to "slow things down ", so to speak. But there is a video on utube that i was watching that says immoium is an opiate?????? Please someone tell me, is there any truth to that? Also as far as the taper goes, my husband has been an incredible support. He leaves for work every am, after leaving me my daily allowance. I have certainly shown dicpline and yesturday when he came home, he was very happy to see that i still had some meds remaining. But........this am he left without leaving me anything, he simply forgot. Of course as soon as my eyes open, i am checking the bottle to make sure "everything will be ok" BS. As soon as i noticed he forgot, the panic set in, and i was freaking out. Its not that i needed the pills, but i needed the security of knowing i had them. Once i got ahold of him, found out where the were everything was fine. Just the feeling of not being in control of my recovery really scared me. Now here i am......i have the entire bottle, i am sure he has not counted them, but i sure have. I will allow myself to have less then yesturday, and will not cheat. After all I AM GETTING MY LIFE BACK. I have never gone through something as challenaging in my entire life. In a weird sort of way, i am looking forword to thursday night, when i flush the rest. Dont get me wrong, i am totally scared and freaking out at times, but also determined and sooooo ready. Thanks guys, you keep me strong and focused.

[overopiates]

1st of all congratulations.I say all the time if I can do it anyone can.As far as u saying u have no will power u clearly do.I assume ur tapering(MOST cant that takes tremendous willpower)if ur not tapering just flushing pills is a huge deal(I have but not when I was using or n the begining I couldnt have).Dont sell urself short.As for the vitamins they should help.Dont forget immodium(name brand)take generously through the first few days if u need it.U have a plan,set a date&sound determined thats very important.

[Dave1963]

You GO girl !!!!  We're all here to help you, just keep posting....Dave

[Pat1956100]

You have so much to look forward to and a great attitude.  Your whole life is ahead of you and it will be so wonderful when you are clean.  So happy for you and your decision. xo

[Free2agoodhome]

you will make it  !!!