still using

[madcapo12]

im sorry i let so many people down .. my head says stop my body said NO
sometimes by the time i take something i dint even remember doing it ..
i tell myself thats it.. but then i also say one more day wont hurt.
ill stop tomorrow.. i have stopped before but i always seen to get but lattly
i feel my only way out is death.. that way i cant hurt anyone any more. Ive tried over and over.. alone by myself
and ill alright considering.... what u have to go throw.. to get clean..
i just feel like dieing.. what scares me right now is the fact that ..
after say it for so long ive to belive nows the times if any so
  thanks for all the people in my life that tryded to help me
see things .. just i just cant see happen

[madcapo12]

look im sorry i know u have always been their for me ... im sorry i let u down ..i dont want to fight anymore..  

[freedom007]

you posted for a reason...you are reaching out...which means you really want to live.

Please keep fighting!!